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*confused

2010-03-17T23:06:00.005+08:00

sometimes i do think muslims are weird. alright it may not be fair stating it in such a way. but i'm just confused and how some muslims can be so fanatic and some just alright with it regarding the halal stuff.

last friday, the teachers had potluck in school for unknown reason. guess for some school break celebration? dont know. whatever. for sure, it was fun cause its so obvious as the presence of food lighted up the 'party'. so, as a considerate non muslim, i brought drinks. bottled. still sealed. tesco coke and lemon lime since i had a few bottles left at home due to cny. everything was fine. the food, the atmosphere until almost at the end, me and the other 2 friends were chatting, one of them was drinking cola which was brought by me, opened by a muslim teacher and drank by mostly muslim teachers, this ustaz who happened to passby stopped and asked my friend.

'kamu minum cola?'

my friend's face was filled with question marks. i wasnt sure whether she was not listening, not clear with the question, shocked or that ustaz was soft. but i was for sure very puzzled. i think that ustaz repeated his question cause my friend's answer was soft and unsure, assuming that she didnt listen. when she clearly said, 'ya' and nodded, that ustaz asked again.

'kamu tak tau ke cola itu bla bla bla....(some terms which i assume it is used for a food or drink that if you are not sure whether its halal or not. to cut it short, that ustaz trying to say its smtg tak halal)'

i remained puzzled and be more observant towards their conversations.

after that ustaz walked off, very naturally i turned to my friend (a muslim. duh!) and asked her,

'kenapa? tak boleh minum cola ke??? tapi cikgu-cikgu lain (muslims too) minum je.'

at first i thought it was the anti-palestin thingie which happened ages ago. so, i was like, 'tak boleh minum lagi ke??? bukan dah lama berlalu???'

then only i knew that was not the case, it was due to the ingredients in cola that made the cola tak halal. my friend said she heard bout it but didnt really pay much attention as she thought it was just some rumours.

and me, trying not to feel guilty, i took the bottle and checked the ingredients. happened to be various types of fats and ah! there was a halal symbol there. i showed my friends and told them, 'jangan risau. ada tanda halal. made in malaysia'.

i was actually forgotten bout it until the news reported that cocacola plans to invest 300millions in malaysia and as far as i know, pm showed quite positive response to it. he's even proud to have that giant brand here. and today, while i was having mcchicken, i realised i was drinking COCACOLA.

so, can you see the conflict here??????????

first, if its tak halal, why is the plan seems to be approved in an islamic country?????????? and getting so much supports from pm???????? very obvious, with that investment which means cocacola is spreading wider wings here. most productions, more promotions, easily reachable, probably cheaper and thus more people drinking it (more sales). second, i can see the muslims are enjoying their meals in mcD with their soft drinks (COCACOLA!).

so????? aren't they weird and confusing??????

dont worry i'm fine

2010-03-11T21:20:00.004+08:00

its getting a little difficult to breathe today, i dont know why. after beating in some abnormally fast rate, my heart started to ache a little. after few hours, the suffocation is back with my heart aching again and i have to stretch myself to get a really deep breath to make sure i am breathing in some air into my lungs. man, what a freakening thing. i understand i may not be very young now but after all i'm not that old for a worn out heart. really hope it is just some normal thing and does not mean anything. ya, that should be it, i'm fine. very fine.

here he comes...

2010-03-04T02:34:00.003+08:00

since weekend i've been waiting and in another 11+ hours, here he comes and here i go.....

***** fingers crossed *****

***** pray hard *****

***** all the best to me *****

been so long...

2010-02-27T23:34:00.002+08:00

two days ago was the release of STPM result. wow, so many years back since i've taken mine. during my time, i didn't fancy that moment. who would when the results came out to be a disappointment. thank god, its over now and i've recover from that yucky feelings. but not long from now, i will soon be hit with another disappointment. aah!!!! please, dont let that to happen. i rather it that kinda of news where it turns out to be good news when i've prepared for the worst. that feeling is great. just like the one felt by tim urban and alex lambert during their elimination rounds. they thought they would be bidding goodbyes but how fortunate its not their time yet. but if they still fail to prove themselves next week, well most probably the banana is stolen before it gets ripen. anyhow, personally i hope jermaine seller gets eliminated as soon as possible. i dislike him the most, he somehow irritates me a lot.

oh!

2010-02-23T00:18:00.005+08:00

with my milo ice beside me in a hot midnight although the rain just poured, i am sitting facing my laptop again to blog about pai ti kong.

before i laid my fingers on the keyboard, i took a sip of my i-believe-very-yummilicious-milo that i just made specially for myself.

with very high expectation of my skill in making milo ice, my tiny sepet eyes grew bigger as the drink was swallowed and the taste was detected by my taste buds on my tongue and interpreted by my brain.

holy s***!!!!!

SALTY??!!!

WHAT???!!!!

it turned out salty????

i was in real shock. apa ni? quickly i refreshed and gosh, that crytal looking solids i poured which i thought was sugar suddenly became clear to my brain it was salt. adeh! my yummilicious milo became salty milo ice. *sigh

i begin with my first sip and now i seal it with last gulp of my salty milo ice. it tasted not bad but let it remained as the first and last.

pai ti kong will be posted other day. i'm kinda still in a shock.

i dont know what is this

2010-02-21T00:39:00.002+08:00

to xx,

if only i have the courage to tell you how much i miss you, i would be email this to you instead of blogging here. but come to think of it, its not that i do not have the courage cause courage is not what it takes. for me, i dont find it a problem to say it out what i feel but the point is why would i wanna let you know when i know letting you know will not make a difference. and how do i know i know that? cause i told you so before and i know too that its not me that you want to hear it from.. therefore, from then on, i choose to keep everything concerns bout you in my heart instead of bullshitting to you. this is why this is not found in your inbox but my blog.

cny

2010-02-20T15:16:00.002+08:00

when cny comes, it is all about red, gathering, food, angpaus, poker cards, mahjong, visiting and cny songs. if its not merry, loud and full of laughters, it is not cny. and what makes all these to happen??? gambling! yes, gambling is something you must do dur cny. it is like a package where it includes visiting, gathering, poker cards/ mahjong and angpaus. so fun, so exciting and so risky as you may not know you will lose all your angpaus money or add up to it.

i still remember how i spent my cny gambling almost every year. from 10 cents, 20 cents bet to 50 cents, 1 ringgit note and slowly increase and increase to 2, 3, 5 and now to 10 and 20. it was real crazy how the notes look like waste paper when it comes to gambling.

yesterday was the peak of cny this year for now. initially it was a visiting to my uncles's house before heading home but it turned out to be a gambling day. i was a little reluctant since i've won after gambling from day1 of cny till day5. its smtg uncommon cause i was known of donating almost every year. but c'mon it cny! besides, usually in cny my family will played dank (i dont know the exact term but it sounds that way. thats what we called it. its a card game something similar to baccarat) this year even though every night is gambling night, from black jack to mahjong and rummy but we had not play dank yet. so, i took my seat and settled down with my initial small bet.

now thinking back, no wonder i was winning cause i was playing other games. dank is the game i played and lost almost every year. its too late to realise, as i played, i wasnt aware how much i actually lost until i refused to take out another 50 ringgit note. unlike mahjong and rummy besides luck, you need skill. but for dank, its like black jack, more to luck than skill. and the winning losing activity was way faster than those skilled games which was why i wasnt noticing i actually lost up to three figures. i was like 'wah, wa su a ni ceh lui liao'.

what to do...so i took a late lunch break while the rest still busy betting.

after a break from my refusal of taking another 50 note, i was back to play since it supposed to be the last 3 rounds. but banker's pile of 50 notes getting higher and higher, making his win up to four figures. the atmosphere was getting tenser and hotter. almost all the players were losing with me at the bottom of the top loser list. so our going home early plan was postponed and the gambling session continued.

but my weird superstitious funny aunt disallowed me to play. according to her, the additional players caused her to lose so she asked me to bet on her bet. so, i was like okay since she convinced me that her spot was very 'ong'. after 2 rounds, my 50 note gone, left only red notes. i was like, 'tua ee ah, lu u pian wa bo. ko kong lu eh ui ong. wa eh lui si ka ceng hu cuik tui lai eh.'

with not much hope, standing and watching them playing, suddenly there's a twist of luck. it was a right choice to make a comeback. every rounds, i would grab two red notes from her and the best thing was it was continuousssssss. oh my, it felt so GOOD!!!!!!

not too long, the money i lost was back to me. in fact i was now winning a little. AWESOME!!!!!! thanks to my aunt. it wouldnt be that fast and easy if i was the one playing.

around half an hour, the banker called it off after no longer bear distributing most of his winning notes. and so we kuai kuai got ourselves ready to continue our journey back home. all well ends well =)

happy chinese new year people!!!!!

*happy birthday bro and belated birthday to sp and ej!

no more ROS

2010-01-29T13:28:00.003+08:00

friday 29th - my last day of ros [hooray!]

ya, so its my last day of ros and its also the day i did team teaching biology with my partner. after this, my practical will be officially start next week. unfortunately, biology teachers are more than enough in the school so no choice but to teach science.

back to team teaching... how terrible, it was such a rush. everything's so last minute. incomplete lesson plan, not detailed content, insufficient worksheet, questions were way to easy and no rehearsal. my slides that going to present to the students were completed only like 20 minutes before the lesson started. ya, 20 minutes and i was still at home, in my pajamas which i suppose to be in school preparing and stuff. how awful. i managed to get quick bath, simply grab baju kurung from the piles of unwashed clothes and most terrible was that i didnt even have sufficient time to brush my teeth. ewww...i wonder did those boys realise the natural smell when i walked past them.

anyhow, thank goodness, no marks was given for this observation even though the teachers gave us compliments over the activities we carried out. at least we did not make ourselves look silly. well, i guess they did see potentials in us especially me. haha!

alright, last minute thing and those unprepared stuff are so not gonna happen when i begin to teach next week (is that so??). now, i kinda pity my students despite they made me shout every moments i entered the class. oh my god, bless me and my students. hopefully they wont flunk their monthly test next month and mid year examination. hopefully they dont go crazy too when i'm observed by my supervisor. or else i'll make them run around the field, sun them, clean my car and bla bla bla.... ah, fun!

hello 2010

2010-01-03T03:35:00.002+08:00

this post is merely to welcome 2010. how 'mo liu', ya i know but its still something to cheer about cause its once a year event. hurray!!!!!

may be a little too late HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

a new year but same old wish = world peace and harmony

when its crashed

2009-12-30T23:25:00.002+08:00

i usually have lot of words running in my head, wishing to immediately transfer it to my blog but that moment the page is on and when my ten fingers touch the keyboard; ready to type, my mind eventually goes blank.

ever since xmas i could feel that i was in major disappointment and slightly unhappy. i tried to comfort myself. i tried to be as optimistic as i could be. i kept telling myself its not a big deal, i dont care, its just a small matter that people actually dont worry bout it at all. even i myself felt it was a small matter but i really never thought that the impact would be this huge. it was so severe that at one point, i knew and i could hear my heart was crying in disappointment.

say i'm silly, perhaps i am, to be upset over a small matter but to know that i maybe unable to achieve what i've been setting my focus, you can never imagine that feeling unless you experience it.... it is so painful.

peace

2009-12-12T01:07:00.003+08:00

how effective is meditation????? i guess i really need it to find peace in ma mind and soul.

anyways, xmas is coming!!!! but i've already got myself this year's xmas presents...hahahahaha!!!!!! cool stuff and damn, i love them very much so much!!!!

ah, OMG, just realise that my HAIR REACH MY MOUTH!!!!!!!!! this is SUPERBLY LONG for me..... unbelievable. this length wont last for long cause i plan to go for a trim real soon.

there is this weird thing, when its year end rashes seem to attack me. i am like typing halfway, scratch here, type again, scratch there.... damn, its so itchy and i know i shouldnt be scratching or else it will turn red and tiny lumps will appear @ rashes.... dammit, i cant continue anymore, its really itchy. AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

some crap to avoid reading

2009-11-18T23:53:00.004+08:00

<sigh> like normal human, this is where i end up when i still have loads of chapters to complete... serve me right for taking my last paper for granted. now i'm stucked with 12+ chapters at 2356 before my 0900 paper the next day. will i be able to finish all the chapters by tonight????? i dont know but i will try my best to at least browse through every words. after all, its my LAST of the very last. so i will enjoy every seconds of every miserable sleepy moments i'm going through tonight. anyways, lets get bloody brain back to work....while countdown for MERDEKA!

ekspedisi memburu dan makan durian

2009-11-10T19:35:00.003+08:00

pada petang yang serba baik cuacanya, 5 orang yang enggan belajar tiba-tiba memulakan ekspedisi memburu dan makan durian di sekitar kawasan berbantukan tiga buah motor. tanpa sebarang pengetahuan tentang harga pasaran dan kemahiran memilih, dengan sesuka hati mereka memilih mana-mana gerai.

gerai pertama yang dikunjungi nampaknya kurang bijaksana. penjualnya dengan muka licik menjual tanpa ikhlas, tidak jujur serta sempat mengeluarkan kata-kata sinis. sambil mereka makan, mereka pun layan sahajala kata-kata itu.

dah kata penjual tak jujur, mestilah durian yang dibelah kurang enak, harga pula rm10 untuk 3biji, tak berpatutan langsung dengan kualiti durian yang dimakan!!! keras, sikit, tak sedap!!! tak guna betul pakcik itu!!!! [dosa pakcik! terimalah di dunia akhirat nanti!] umpama membeli pengalaman sahajala di gerai itu.

selepas itu, dengan kurang rasa puas hati, ekspedisi memburu dan makan kembali beraksi. gerai kedua dijaga oleh dua orang budak india. si budak lelaki itu sibuk melayan tiga lelaki dewasa yang khusyuk makan durian dan si adik perempuannya itu entah tengah buat apa.

budak lelaki itu menyuruh mereka memilih durian yang dikehendaki dan harganya tak menentu mengikut saiz durian. dengan was-was dan seolah-olah mereka terdengar suara hati mereka lalu memutus untuk ke gerai seterusnya meninggalkan gerai budak india itu.

gerai ketiga ini adalah jagaan seorang pakcik, makcik dengan seorang anak lelakinya. seperti biasa, mereka buat-buat berunding harga dan kualiti durian pada awalnya. salah seorang daripada mereka sempat mengintai durian-durian yang terletak di dalam but kereta.

dalam but itu, ada durian yang isi lebih sedap dan busuk yang diasingkan dan selainnya disusun di atas lantai. mengikut pakcik itu durian yang isi sedap, apabila digoncang, ada bunyi, menandakan kualiti baik. apa lagi, durian kualiti baik sudah tentu perlu dimasukkan ke dalam perut mereka.

setelah berunding harga, pakcik muka jujur ini sememangnya baik kerana sanggup menurunkan harga dari rm20 untuk 8biji ke rm15. entahlah berpatutan atau tidak asalkan berjaya dikurangkan harga pun jadilah.

pada masa itu juga, mereka membeli dan makan, memberi sepenuh kepercayaan kepada kata-kata pakcik itu yang menyatakan durian itu sedap.

sememangnya pakcik muka jujur itu jujur kerana setiap biji yang dibelah itu amat sedap rasanya, cukup manis dan berlemak. mereka pun makan dengan lahapnya dan seulas demi seulas disumbat sehingga terasa kepuasan yang mengukir senyuman di muka masing-masing dan kekenyangan yang nak termuntah.

sehingga sekarang salah seorang daripada mereka masih dan asyik sendawa sambil menaip di sini. apa-apapun, ekspedisi memburu dan makan durian dikira berjaya dan berbaloi!!!!!

gambar yang sempat dan teringat nak ambil selepas makan...tak banyak pun, 8biji je....

beware

2009-11-09T14:36:00.004+08:00

well, today, as usual i greeted this friend @ junior @ neighbour of mine when i saw her in her house. but the reason i went to the house not because of her. its because my friends @ her housemates @ not junior but same batch are staying there too. usually she's very talkative, jumping in joy, silly and will greet me even before me. however, today, she looked different, had been so quiet and even ignored me. curiously i investigated, thinking that it might caused by exam pressure but then i found out that its very common of her acting in such a way as she's a very sensitive person [OMG!] besides being silent and showing mourning face [you know those sour, sad face expression when someone dies], according to my resources, there was once she left the house because my friends aka her housemates were saying some stuff. just that i didn't knew bout it until like now (?) almost the end of the sem (?) what the.. *doosh... as my resources refreshed me, 'kamu tau tak..?', 'kamu tau tak masa tu...?', 'tau tak bila...?' and bla bla and most of the time i answered, ' saya tak tau!!!', 'ye ke???, 'betul??!!'. then only i only knew that throughout this sem, i actually said many many words that i would never expect she would considered them harsh. i even innocently commented on how slow she cooked which cooking happened to be a sensitive issue for her [very sensitive issue]. guess the level of harshness is still acceptable since she did not reveal the other side of her when i said those words. this is a lesson to be learnt which is never assume someone is kind even she does look kind. besides, kind people never claim they are not sensitive. to that friend of mine, the next time i see her, i'l filter my words, be less straight forward and maybe i should distant myself too for safety precautions. i had enough of making someone cried because of my words. ah, scary and dangerous...

exam begins

2009-11-09T14:07:00.003+08:00

hah, today is the actual beginning of my exam cause only today i sat for my first paper while a number of my friends or most students in the same faculty sat for their last papers = finished their exams = indeed put a dot to the exams here.

therefore, its hard for them not to show off how 'the end' of their exams sufferings because after this they no longer face anymore examinations if they dont plan to continue their studies.

moreover, when they just knew my paper just started, wasn't that the most perfect time to tease me and express their stupid ugly happy arrogant faces?

but surprise surprise, i dont give a damn. at all.

now i patiencely waiting for the coming of the two papers. its my first time having paper on the last day of the exam. can't believe i manage to experience it on my last semester in the campus. and it sure feels good to end the last paper because it is not only the last paper taken in this sem but last paper of my whole degree on the last day of last exam of my last semester in campus.

un-stress myself

2009-11-06T20:40:00.006+08:00

this may be a lil disgusting but it's about life it's about us it's about me...

so, what about?? ah, as i'm sitting facing my laptop browsing the words, papers on the table and pencil in my hand, the uneasy feelings arise. i start to do some stretching, trying to get the feelings away yet i'm getting more irritated. in other words, it is the sign of me being stressed.

then after, i figure out something [bright bulb appear above my head *ting*]. something somehow some way best to release tension... is... by farting. and the key is the longer and louder the fart, the better it works. oh, sometimes its fun too if the fart is short but keep on farting small one in a row.. serious! that moment that force of air released that moment youl feel lighten up that moment a smile automatically appear on the face... you know the satisfactory feelings, the *aaaaahhhhh... and the body seems to become softer and liquify, flowing... if you don't know then imagine..... imagine you're having stomachache. ah, damn, really aching but oh no, toilet elek [with the hand twisting, head shaking and funny face expression] so no choice but to hold very long.......very very long...you squeeze you tummy. cross your legs. bend your body...still holding on... then goosebumps. cold sweat on the face and dripping from the hair. and [s][h][i][v][e][r]...i tell you thats the most horrible condition ever BUT that moment you get to release... OMG *plip plip plup plup* tak payah la kot nak cerita kepuasan itu.... well, YEAH! thats the moment, thats the solution....

*i think i blog bout this before but doesnt matter since i've written it...

one sentence

2009-10-22T01:22:00.002+08:00

well, that's it, no more lectures no more lab to attend in the university i've spent for 3years and 4months...

aih..

2009-10-19T00:38:00.002+08:00

around one more month and that's when i'm wrapping up my stuff leaving nothing but memories.

certainly it's not the end but another new beginning to move on.

aah, still a long way to go.....

penderitaan

2009-10-19T00:13:00.002+08:00

menderita aku...

bukan kerana makan nasi sejuk dengan telur,
bukan kerana tugasan yang bertimpal,
bukan kerana tesis yang tidak nampak penghujungnya,
bukan kerana esok exam malam ini baru nak baca,
bukan kerana tak dapat tidur,
bukan kerana tak dapat balik rumah,

tetapi

menderita lagi aku melihat orang yang disayangi dan dicintai menderita dan aku sekadar memandang dari jauh tidak mampu membuat apa-apa....

sedar tak sedar, penderitaan inilah penderitaan yang paling menyeksakan bagi aku.

i choose

2009-09-29T22:43:00.002+08:00

if i am to suffer, please let me suffer all the pain at one time in one shot rather than being painful for a long period of time. time may be the best medicine but it can be killing at times.

foodpoisoning

2009-09-26T15:29:00.002+08:00

falling sick is very common. maybe once a while like once in 2-3 months or for girls perhaps slightly once a month.

when people usually have those illnesses like fever, flu, cough and sore throat, i will more commonly attacked by bacteria which caused me food poisoning.

i dont know why but it seems that i get food poisoning more often than those sicknesses i mentioned. suka suka tornado will occurs in my stomach. everything will turn upside down and the chaos is clearly heard by human ears. then, digestive system will be malfunction and everything starts to go wrong and leads to stomachache, diarrhea and vomit. thank god, i'l be fine after throwing up.

i wonder if its me stuffing too much and macam-macam in my tummy. i'm worried when my tummy expands and harden. thats terrifying you know. and thats when i realise the good side of diarrhea and vomitting. very obvious, its stock clearing sign.

selamat hari raya!

2009-09-20T21:07:00.002+08:00

Ъ~~ se...se...se...selamat hari raya kepada saudara serta saudari...
setahun hanya sekali...
meraikan hari yang mulia ini.....~~~~

selamat hari raya aidilfitri warga malaysia. tak kira bangsa dan agama memandangkan kita kan 1 malaysia. sebab itu saya balik awal and bercuti sekali. ahaha...

sambutan hari raya sememangnya amat bermakna terutama setelah sebulan berpuasa. nikmat aidilfitri lebih terasa dengan adanya bulan puasa. walaupun hari saya berpuasa tidaklah seberapa tetapi saya dapat merasai kepuasan, kelegaan dan kebahagiaan berakhirnya bulan ramadhan dan bermulanya syawwal.

sungguhpun kengkawan saya di bandar tercinta saya entah hilang ke mana, rumah yang patut terbuka tidak nampak pintunya. *haihz...tak apalah.... banyak lagi rumah terbuka menunggu saya di tm. hoo~~hooo~~~ tak sabarnya ... makanan raya... makanan...makanan.... mmm... yumm yummm....

can i lean on you?

2009-09-12T15:01:00.003+08:00

at this moment if i measure my body pressure, i'm sure the device will end up bursting into pieces...

idiot me for some reason pushed myself to a limit that i'm so tensed, frustrated and ended up breaking down in a dead end feeling so lost, so miserable and kinda hopeless. i'm just like a person sitting at one quiet, solitary, dark corner all by myself curling and hugging both my legs in despair. in this silence.....,

if only.......

there's a place for me to rest and lean on....

if i ask, will you...?

mystery

2009-09-10T02:59:00.010+08:00

an anatomy book called 'anatomy' which my lecturer owns it is indeed very special. basically the content almost the same as what we learn today but...

this book is written around 1869! count and its like 140 years ago!!!!

i dont really remember but its pretty obvious that in 1800s, no such thing called electron microscope or whatever sophisticated devices yet. however without those someone can actually figured so much about the human anatomy and look at these pictures drawn... they are amazingly beautiful!

it's a wonder to see these pictures. i truly admire them.

...

i guess many has been contributed whether the one viewed or the one being viewed as its not about one or two dissections. in order to examine those parts by parts to have a clearer and better view, well indeed needed tonnes of hardwork, determination and interest.

...

it's even more impressive how one from that era is able to study this anatomy thing. even though i only had little time to only flipped through the pages, from the drawing there's not much difference of 140 years ago and today's knowledge.

...

ever wonder who's that great person?

...

henry gray! ya, thats the one with dr.carter and dr.westmarcott produced such brilliant work. the book called anatomy by gray...anatomy gray.....gray anatomy..... sounds familiar??? perhaps thats how the show grey's anatomy earns the name. hah! just some wild guess.

xxxxx

on the other hand, malaysia which most malaysians know this name is declared replacing tanah melayu at the year of 1963. since then, we are known as malaysians and malaysia is known as malaysia worldwide.

...

but to my surprise, the name malaysia is not smtg new in fact it is pretty well known by the reseachers, ecologists and botanists many many years back. look.... this is smtg found in a book written in 1923.

i'm not sure how malaysia got its name but from this piece of evidence we know that malaysia has long existed. foreigners basically british has used this name in their researches.

...

at that time, malaysia back then is known as huge as what we learn as southeast asia of today.

...

but god knows how, the name doesn't seem to be used elsewhere and soon it seems to be vanished until someone in our country decided to rename 'tanah melayu' as malaysia.

...

its a wonder now to me why the name no longer be used and who decided on the name of our country and how the name came across that particular person.

...

whatever it is, i feel shameful as i don't seem to know my country well. *sigh... history in school should plays a better role

box set 368

2009-09-04T00:54:00.006+08:00

the just released slovak sling's pirated dvd seller/dealer guy was searching for a dvd he labelled as 368 and

guess what?????

that dvd is actually dvd of SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANT!!!!! oh my god!!!! of all the dvds. adeh!

a 3seconds special appearance by spongybob and patrick in slovak sling.... .....unbelievable.....

hmm..

2009-09-03T02:47:00.004+08:00

here i am in the middle of the night after one roti canai with teh tarik in mamak stall. i doubt its the supper that still keeps me wide awake but no other factor can best explain it.

anyways, with most of them soundly asleep except some guys living upstairs making some shocking sound unexpectedly, i just finished watching one future a day after its released date. well, one i forgot and two i slept early yesterday to repay my only 2,4 hours sleep day before.

i guess besides yasmin ahmad chocolate, one future is something i find interesting and i think there's really a huge message behind the story (though i know every short films have messages to be told, problem is i'm not that smart to figure out most of them). perhaps it's that guy called tian chua should be the correct name which makes me to relate it to politics in this country automatically.

besides liking the way the film is plotted, edited and produced, i feel that the story is so malaysia at some point. [well duh, the main title is 15malaysia ba] something reflecting what's happening here but just like chocolate not many actually realise and can see it. only a certain of people know the existence because they witness it or experience it. maybe thats the reason the director chose that guy for the film.

after 8 short films which outlined in a very artistic way basically about misunderstanding, discrimination, natural resources, social problems etc.... are those really what malaysia is to them???? do they see malaysia in that way???? telling us how realistic it is???? what kind of awareness do they actually trying to draw?

majority up to now are negative or issues. dont they have something really sweet and beautiful stuff about malaysia or malaysians? not regarding those in advertisements made by the kementerian but no matter how realistic is in reality now, i'm sure malaysia is not only about those. perhaps what outlined were only a tiny black dot on the white cloth. why cant we look in the white and let it shadow the tiny dot....lets together make our country a better place...lets walk the 1malaysia and not talk bout it only.

looking forward for at least one film - one genuine shot

sabar...

2009-08-26T01:14:00.002+08:00

sedar tak sedar sudah berlalu 4hari bulan ramadhan ini. setelah tidak puasa untuk 2 hari, semalam saya kembali berpuasa untuk hari kedua saya.

sepanjang saya berpuasa walaupun tak banyak hari, semalam merupakan hari yang paling mencabar untuk saya....aaah...

saya hampir-hampir tidak puasa penuh semalam. dengan badan yang mula menunjukkan tanda-tanda demam dan setelah menelan 2biji panadol elok-elok sebelum azan subuh, saya menahan kekeringan mulut dan tekak sepanjang hari. semalam juga entah apa sebabnya, kelaparan amat dirasai dan terpaksalah saya menahan dan menahan. jalan termudah, saya tidur.

petang pula buat kali pertama saya berjalan di pasar ramadhan dalam keadaan berpuasa, sememangnya rasa sangat mencabar dan amat tercabar.

dengan lauk-pauk di atas meja, ayam digolek bersinar menitis nitis minyaknya, ayam percik, kepak panggang, ikan bakar, roti john, kebab, laksa, kuih muih, nasi ayam, nasi tomato, sup saudagar, murtabak dan segala makanan dan minuman di depan mata tak kira sedap ke tak sedap [tapi memang semua nampak sedap] tidak henti-henti meransang dan menguatkan nafsu makan saya. memang terasa dan teringin sangat-sangat untuk beli dan makan SEMUA makanan tersebut.

bukan itu sahaja, bunyi ais dan air pula, semasa makcik penjual air mengacau tong-tong air menyebabkan saya semakin terliur terbayangkan kesedapan dan kesegaran menghirup air sejuk yang sedap itu.... aduhai, masa itu saya berfikir alangkah sedapnya kalau dapat seteguk. seteguk pun jadilah...

tetapi dengan semangat, kecekalan dan kesabaran yang tinggi, apa yang boleh saya buat masa itu hanyalah sekadar menelan kembali air liur yang semakin melimpah-limpah dan menunggu detik demi detik dan syukurlah saya berjaya buat kali kedua untuk tahun ini.

2208

2009-08-22T01:53:00.003+08:00

~happy birthday to me!~

hehe...

i guess it's a sign of good beginning since it falls on first day of ramadhan, beginning of the holy month =)

when i was home that day, i found this item that i kept and treasured as its one and only in the world. what made it more precious was that it was made meant for me. yes, made! and this year on my special day, i've decided to use this item as when i was is when the sender is now.

x x x x x

sempena bulan ramadhan, saya telah berbicara dengan Yang Maha Kuasa lagi Menyayang dan Mengasihi, setelah tawar menawar dan saya berjaya membuat beberapa permintaan. diharap permintaan-permintaan saya dikabulkan dan balasan tulus ikhlas dari saya adalah dengan berpuasa tanda terima kasih dan kesyukuran.

dengan niat-niat ini, saya bersedia dan amat bersemangat untuk berpuasa selagi dan selama saya berada di kolej tahun ini. jadi, marilah bersahur, berpuasa, berpasar ramadhan dan berbuka bersama-sama!!!! tarawih??? [tak perlu laa kot]

baiklah, sambung mengaji sekarang... birthday ke puasa ke exam tetap ada... lepas exam baru kita berseronok melebih-lebih!!!!! woohooo....

~ouch!~ but nice

2009-08-11T16:14:00.008+08:00

just so you know, this is the creature that bit me three weeks ago when i was helping out in my fieldwork in gunung lang. besides leaving me four memorable tinnie winnie mini minnie holes, this squirrel also caused a jab on my left hand.

....

you may think i deserve it from the picture but no no. we had no intention at all to kill it. all we wished was a little of his blood to identify his species [DNA] and he just had to bite me to get away. aduhai.

...

'dermalah darah wahai si tupai' [kedekut]

purest raindrops

2009-08-10T20:07:00.002+08:00

its been a long day and its not an usual day i've been through.

many things seem to want to appear in my mind but i managed to refuse except to some that managed to pop out and caused me to be...

its a rainy morning i woke up to as though god really can read through me. i myself couldn't understand why i felt this way.

all i could feel is a heavy, darn f***ing heavy heart that hurts little by little. its a pain where i dont tear from my eyes but deep in my heart. that invisible tear is painful, real painful, more than ever. eventually i teared after flipping and reading........

i wonder i really do wonder why.

[ ]

2009-06-30T23:16:00.009+08:00

author still in vacation mood.
therefore this blog is temporary on vacation too...
enjoy your days like how author does

while i'm vanishing, here are a few moments that i would like to share....

sometimes

it is just necessary to slow down

take some time to look back

stare at your surroundings

the beauty of life

can be right beside, below and above you.....

back in one piece

2009-06-26T21:54:00.004+08:00

AWESOME!!!!!

yes! thats the word....

for the last 19 days, days have been filled with excitement, eager, enthusiasm, energetic, commitment, patriotism, burning, exhaustion, anger, pain, fatigue, anxiety, drowsiness, sleepiness, patience, confidence, dynamic, proud, satisfaction, smiles, laughters, joy, fear, craziness, fascination, overwhelming, splendid, pleasure, remarkable, amusement, happiness, gratefulness and loads of loads of fun.

it will be cool to share everything here ....but not now cause i just back from long journey, very the worn out.

i need to rest.

*may you r.i.p michael.jackson.

pseudo---

2009-06-02T01:05:00.005+08:00

externally i maybe 16 years old
[its what unknown aunties uncles told me]

internally i maybe 46 years old

but

the actual me...

*sigh... real long

not good

2009-05-31T23:14:00.004+08:00

with my forehead resting on my left hand, with my eyes closed but spec on, i sigh a few times when typing this.

not that i am sad but i am sinked in boredom waiting for the korean drama to finish downloading. taking forever.

and why am i still watching?

because i cant think of better thing to do. so free. so nothing to do or to be more accurate i refuse to do
[just so you know my proposal is still incomplete where almost all had completed theirs, some even had their thesis started; whole database waiting for me to transfer so that a new website can be created; and stuff to list and pack for final training in u.pm]

its so annoying when interest of doing something anything at least one thing vanished. totally infected with virus LAZY 09.

worse when i dont even feel like rolling and lazing on my bed.

adding to my discomfort is the hot weather. making me sweat, sticky and smelly for no reason.

and improper sitting posture causing my shoulder and back to ache.

how disturbed and uneasy! not a good sign.

kalo rajin bacalah

2009-05-29T23:10:00.005+08:00

bila hujung minggu menjelang, yang terlintas di fikiran saya adalah sejenis haiwan yang amat terkenal di bandar tersayang saya pada zaman ini dan juga telah menjadi punca kesesakan. haiwan yang saya maksudkan ini sangat hebat, yes ladies and gentlemen AMAT HEBAT!

haiwan (haiwan-haiwan) ini hebat sekali sehingga terpapar di akhbar dan 'terima kasih' kepada wartawan dan syarikat akhbar, berita dan haiwan itu menarik perhatian warga tidak kira umur dan bangsa (ya, hitam, putih dan perang...semua sekali) dari seluruh semenanjung. benar sebenarnya.... bandar saya sekarang bukan sahaja (bukan lagi) terkenal dengan taman tasik, zoo dan bukit tapi haiwan ini juga. kini ia telah menjadi tumpuan pelancong dan sekaligus berjaya mengharumkan bandar saya (terima kasih? aduhai..).

pernah saya melihat dan mengira lebih kurang 20 bas bertapak di perkarangan haiwan ini melepak. bayangkan sekiranya sebuah bas membawa minima 35 dan maksima 42 penumpang, berapakah orang yang menyibuk dan menyemak di bandar saya??? itu hanyalah dari mata kasar saya, belum lagi kira bas yang entah letak di mana, orang yang saya tak nampak, yang datang sendiri, menggunakan kenderaan sendiri dan orang tempatan sendiri. kerana pemberi maklumat saya memberitahu kadang-kadang sampai menjangkau 40 lebih buah bas.

persoalannya, mengapakah????

hah! kehebatannya amat menakjubkan! haiwan ini dipercayai mempunyai kuasa. kuasa yang dipercayai boleh menjadikan seseorang lebih kaya <>

bagaimana???

dengan hanya mengambil sekeping duit kertas dan dengan perlahannya membelai/menggosok ke atas haiwan tersebut. (dengar kata gosok dari kepala ke badan. tak tahulah...) kemudian??? kemudian, apa lagi, pergilah beli nombor ekor dengan duit kertas itu!

sejauh manakah kebenarannya, saya tidak tahu kerana saya tidak cuba. rasanya tidak setipu mana memandangkan semakin hari semakin ramai orang asing menyemak di sini. yang tak pernah datang, datang dan yang pernah datang, datang lagi. namun begitu, kejadian ini kini terlalu hangat sehingga mendapat perhatian pihak polis....haha, ini yang menarik dan mengelikan hati saya kenapa pihak polis boleh terlibat. membuat tinjauan? tangkapan? atau siasatan?

mengikut sumber maklumat saya, sebabnya adalah....

1. ingin menangkap orang me_a_u yang terlibat. kenapa??? sebab HARAM!!! mengapa haram??? sebab haiwan itu adalah B-A-B-I!!!! is_a_ mana boleh sentuh babi!!!!??? is_a_ mana boleh berjudi!!!!???

2. [yang ini sangat lucu bagi saya] sebab perbuatan ini dianggap tidak hormat kepada raja, negara dan agama? mengapa??? pernah tak terlintas ataupun sedar apa yang tercetak di atas duit kertas kita??? gambar siapa??? beliau orang apa??? agama apa???? dan apakah perbuatan orang-orang itu - [hint] gosok pada haiwan itu. jadi, gosok-muka-orang tercetak-haiwan dan haiwan itu adalah BA-- (kaitkan sendiri. dapat? boleh bayang?)
boleh ke dikaitkan sebegitu??? salah ke? saya tak tahu. renung-renung dan fikir-fikirkanlah...

aduhai, tidak pernah saya terpikiaq benda macam ni. sungguh!
apa sudah kes ini sekarang? tidak diketahui. sumber saya sudah pergi melancong dan saya malas untuk melawat kuil itu.

orang sekarang semakin pelik, hidup terlalu senang kot. tak tahulah...

short and perhaps unnecesary post

2009-05-23T14:06:00.005+08:00

it was af and now across countries and oceans another title was crowned just few days back. kris allen the new unexpected winner of american idol for this season this year, a preferrable result in my opinion =)

i admit adam lambert has more powerful voice and vocal. no doubt he is also versatile however, personally i like kris allen more to adam lambert. definitely not because adam lambert is a gay (so far as rumours spread) but there are several parts that i dislike about him. his singing style esp his singing faces expression which was quite ugly and similar to crying and begging for sympathy and his voice at certain range somehow irritated me and freaked me out which made me felt that kris allen was way way better. i know its certainly a lame excuse and not fair if i judged adam lambert in that way because even in finale kris allen was struggling to sing his new song no boundaries but tiny aspects like so would be taken into accounts.

anyways, kris allen no boundaries is good and heartless as well.

keseratus

2009-05-18T02:20:00.010+08:00

its my 100th and....

hell ya its just the right time to shout it out loud......

i completed watching prison break from the very first episode of the very first season till the very last episode of the final season!

be proud prison break cause thats the first and only when i mention only i really mean ONLY english series i watch without a miss!

end of this will make me feel smtg missing in me. i really hope to continually watching it but personally if it doesnt stop like how it is now, it will be too draggy and slowly pull the excitement away. besides, it bothers me watching cute guy michael scofield @ wentworth miller gaining and accumulating more fats.

and so....a big wave of goodbye to prison break and whoever interested to watch or watch it again, come and get it from me =)

cepat cepat

2009-05-17T23:45:00.002+08:00

cepat cepat la sikit....

right now i'm downloading the finale of prison break. taking me so loooooooong so long.

a.f 7 habis sudah ba

2009-05-17T22:33:00.005+08:00

so for akademi fantasia fans, thats it for this year. it was officially ended yesterday night with hafiz the cute curly bomb hair like annouced as the winner of af7. damn damn, in a night he's now the owner of a honda accord with additional rm20000 in his account and many more like olympus camera, nokia cell phone etc.

personally i think he sort of deserved it comparing to other 4. only one i think would be his real competitor, that would be aril and he did proved that as he's the runner up. some might not be satisfied cause he was voted out and then voted in again. its obvious that the whole academy had this voted in back thingie again for his sake (thats my personal thought) and he did rejoined the rest for the finale eventually earning himself the second place.

the rest of the three, well, i think they were just so-so. somehow isma, the only woman in the finalists was the one i felt the most not deserved to be on the stage last night (sorry isma fans) but what to do, public seem to like her (which was a big wonder to me). since this competition was basically depended on votes so its all about popularity, fanatic voters and loaded fans. but i do believe those ppl competiting and surviving til last 5or last 4 have something there to capture their fans' hearts. the x-factor that only their fans could see in them which worth every cents and ringgits of theirs.

as for yazid and akim, yazid's vocal was better than akim however i like akim's voice better but overall they just aint good enough. thats y they din win. ahaha! duh! well, sorry again to yazid and akim's fans.

this whole reality show was the reality show i would say spending the most on their so called students. the students were really taken care well and in fact they were living luxuriously in the academy during the last 10weeks. what a waste of money! perhaps thats was why af had been the aims of malay people here. i was wondering why only malays, sabahan and sarawakians were seen in this competition. why not for the chineses, indians and sikhs? because they couldn't sing better than them? or because they couldn't sing malay songs? or because they feel malay music industry was not what they wanted? but you know what, it could be a real good start. many af ex-students actually are doing pretty well in this industry. look at that eew mawi how he built his fortune in just few years. ah, i dont know why he irritated me in every angles and again its a big wonder why people so in love with him. just eeew!

whatever it is, lets wait for those finalists new songs to be aired esp hafiz's masih jelas. not too bad to give a try.

now i know

2009-05-11T23:43:00.006+08:00

in 2 weekends, i had 2 road trips. traveled across districts, states and country.

first weekend was from tanjung malim --> taiping --> perlis --> hatyai --> perlis --> taiping --> kuala kangsar --> manong --> tanjung tualang --> bidor --> tanjung malim. the road trip with friends actually started form taiping to tm.

second weekend which was just yesterday was from tanjung malim --> kl --> johor bahru --> teluk kerang --> pontian kechil --> kukup --> pulau kukup --> tanjung piai --> pontian --> pekan nenas --> kota tinggi --> kulai --> tanjung leman --> jemaluang --> mersing --> pulau tioman --> mersing --> johor bahru --> kl --> tanjung malim.

road trips are fun not only that we get to travel and eat but geography knowledge definitely improved. besides, the more i travel the more i know the more i fall in love with malaysia.

here are things that i dont know until my recent road trips :

- road to manong has this cool loop which reminds me of the maxis advertisement
- there's train called senandung malam express from kl - singapore (usually i only take express langkawi)
- kukup has international jetty and ppl ac can travel to indonesia through kukup
- the existence of pulau kukup and the mangrove forest in pulau kukup itself
- tanjung piai is the most southern tip of asia!
- pontian and kulai are not kampung like how the names sounded
- yummy noodles in pekan nenas
- waterfall in kota tinggi is charged for rm10 per person (tak guna!)
- the existence of tanjung leman and it's one of the options to cross to pulau sibu
- it takes up to rm200 per person to cross to pulau sibu (padahal its just 45 min ride)
- ktmb train's bed and pillow are pretty comfortable
- roads in johor aint bad to drive even though not a single lamp post and the roads are up and down turn and twist
- the absence of lamp posts throughout the road to mersing makes the moon and stars shine more brightly and the sky so beautiful
- food comes after beautiful sea (this is seriously unexpected!)

when rollercoaster reaches bottom

2009-04-28T15:27:00.004+08:00

this morning with all my heart and soul, i walked to the hall like usual optimistically and confidently looking forward to answer my fourth paper. not long until the paper started, once i flipped through question 2, i was dumbfounded. and things got worse after each questions. when reached to a question needed calculation, i was anticipated cause in my mind i was like,'ok ok at last, i know this' but then it ended up causing me more frustration making me felt so stupid and realized how unprepared and how i've taken it for granted. as i flipped and further flipped i felt weaker and weaker.....its a saddening paper that hit me darn hard. if tears were to flow, its tears right from the heart.

buat manusia yang memerlukan

2009-04-26T17:52:00.004+08:00

wahai manusia manusia yang tengah sibuk berjuang untuk k.p.t 2.0.6.3 dan t.b.g 2.0.1.3, inginku sebarkan utusan dari manusia yang maha mulia lagi maha pengasih tapi tak tau sejauh mana kebenarannya.
kerana engkau setia mengikuti kata kata karutku di laman berlatarkan hijau dan bergambarkan manusia molek yang dikecilkan, inilah rezekimu....

bagi k.p.t 2.0.6.3,
tidak perlulah disebarkan lagi utusan itu kerana tidak banyak masa pun yang tinggal. apa yang mampu buat kini hanyalah banyakkan sesi berbicara denganNYA....

namun bagi t.b.g 2.0.1.3,
biarlah engkau diberi panduan untuk mengharungi saat saat nak mampus ini supaya engkau tidak digolongkan dalam kategori gagal dan jumpa manusia yang maha mulia lagi maha pengasih itu semula. jika engkau gagal, engkau juga akan dilanjutkan pengajian mu di bangunan batu yang cukup berumur itu. oh., tidak.

baca baik baik wahai manusia sekalian, mengikut surat yang ke-3, ayat pertama, soalan berkemungkinan adalah...

"3soalan struktur dari bab 4. kemungkinan soalan membabitkan a.l.l.e.l.e yang membawa maut (l.e.t.h.a.l a.l.l.e.l.e) dan sebagainya, e.p.i.s.t.a.t.i.s dan rationya.
g.e.n.e.tic p.o.p.u.l.a.t.i.o.n
g.e.n.e.tic m.a.p.p.i.n.g
esei pula...
bukti d.n.a dan r.n.a,
o.p.e.r.o.n,
m.o.l.e.c.u.l.a.r g.e.n.e.tic - r.e.p.l.i.c.a.t.i.o.n (tak pasti), t.r.a.n.s.c.r.i.p.t.i.o.n dan t.r.a.n.s.l.a.t.i.o.n."

apa apapun, janganlah terlalu leka dengannya. soalan tutor jangan diabaikan. tidak ada sebarang jaminan dan segala risiko ditanggung sendiri. aku hanyalah berkongsi dengan apa yang ada....

agak panas

2009-04-24T22:50:00.003+08:00

aduhai, bukan saya banyak dosa ke ape tapi betul betul panas kebelakangan ni. macam dah lama tak hujan je padahal baru ribut tengah tengah malam hari tu. malam ribut tu, memang seronok giler tidor. sejuk dan selesa memeluk bantal pada masa yang sama berlipat dan menggulung di bawah selimut. khusyuk dibuai mimpi...lena tak terkata sampai ribut pun tak tau. aduhai, bila nak hujan lagi malam malam?????

moving moving...

2009-04-24T13:59:00.002+08:00

so ya, i've found and rented a house near campus. everything looks okay to me but that housing area not really much preferred because the junction entering there is dangerous.

how dangereous??!!

hmmm....,
lets just say that, many many accidents had occured. too many that the campus gate located in front of the junction was long closed. minor and major accidents involved that some of the accidents' victims had ended dead, half dead, paralysed, half paralysed, head burst, hands legs broken and lucky ones would prob be minor injuries and others still safe and sound. other than that, the junction is nothing much but a normal road.

so, dangerous ka??? it depends to us ba to rate how dangerous it is. if its destined to be...then....

back for nothing

2009-04-24T13:15:00.003+08:00

yo, hibernated blog!

erm, today.....
weather is good. hot bright friday!
mood aint bad. well, no reason why i should be in bad mood or whatsoever.
bear bear is healthy.
motorbike still with 2 wheels.
laundry basket...? err,...still in considerable condition. AH @#$%^, my UNIFORM!....damn, been chucked for weeks. noh noh, more than that d. aiya...kan bu tau..kan bu tau....tak nampak...tak nampak... later laaaa...

so! so!!!!! weekend is heeerrree!!!!! and YES, end of first week of exam. woohoooo.... 2 weeks to go. specifically...[counting with fingers] 13days more. ya, 13 hari lagi saje!! SAJE!!!

anyways, while i'm here i shal update a lil bout myself. too bad i can only blog about me cause i only know updates bout me. guess its confirmed that i'm not accepted to stay in hostel for next sem. hah!!!! halau lar, tak kisah pon! all these are caused by the new intake in next session. dont know why, uni decided to take in so so many students. not as if the uni is very huge or what but increasing almost 2times of the normal intake. what for????? whatever it is, because first year students compulsory to stay in hostel and priority must be given to them. to fill those in..., apa lagi, seniors of every hostels become the victims. one by one kicked out...no no, to be exact, groups by groups been kicked out. and thats y i'm moving out. i mean i need to move out even though we were given the words and so called guaranteed we get to stay til the very last sem. whatever. its gonna be my last sem here. i dont give a damn man, think of it, next sem.....

i hv no curfew! i conquer my room! i can wear shorts in and out! CYCLE to campus! WALK to campus! and babi... er, still not very approriate. hehe...after all, i'm stil staying with muslims and i'm the only chinese in the house.
but it will be real real fun if i hv bicycle....

lighten myself

2009-04-09T14:51:00.006+08:00

it depends on how i view it...

running away definitely not the right choice

no matter how heavy i feel...

the burden will be removed piece by piece

all i have to do is....

look at the brighter side of the day,

believe that the grey sky will turn to bright blue sky and the clouds will give way for the sun to shine...

will it be a warning for me?

2009-04-07T17:42:00.005+08:00

god knows why i woke up with chest pain and heartache today. the feeling definitely not a good one. everyone knows heart is important, so do i but knowing it by words and really know is different case. i wouldnt know how really important my heart is until today when my heart pumped so fast and each beats ached me that i had to press my chest at times and even felt that i would collasped anytime. its not scary but i was worried. i didnt exactly know what kinds of level of pain only can be considered as pain but to be safe, i did asked my roommate to check on me when i fall asleep for example check if i still breathing and inform my parents if anything about to happen to me and asked her to tell the doc or somebody that i complained bout heartache if i fainted or whatsoever guess that will make their work easier. but until now, even though i can still feel the slightly pain, i am still breathing. so nothing to worry about. hah, at least i learnt that i was not afraid of this way of death (for now).

crazily jammed

2009-03-29T19:54:00.004+08:00

ah, jammed was all about taiping this weekend!!!!!!!

fRuStRaTIoN!!!!!!!!!

the town that i love so much made me stucked in the car for around 40 minutes just to enter the ENTRANCE of tesco yesterday night. goodness!!!! and another 40 minutes stucked in the car from simpang to the toll today. AAAAHHHHH.....what da!

causes of traffic jammed :

cheng beng
nomination day or soon to be election in bkt gantang

getting more ~~dizzy~~ now....

earth hour - save the earth

2009-03-24T18:08:00.008+08:00

dear all, let's save the earth by voting Earth together.

all you need to do is to SWITCH OFF your lights

this SATURDAY

28th March 2009

from 8.30 pm to 9.30 pm

my tiny signature is the proof i signed up for earth hour

yea, just push the switch. its that simple!!!!!
of course, it will be better if you always switch off the lights to reduce global warming.

don't see how pretty it is until you switch off the lights

field trip

2009-03-18T16:54:00.028+08:00

first field trip was held last weekend. it was a crazee and fun one as it was the first outing with my coursemates after so many years studying together. was so busy throughout the week that i only managed to blog about it now. very tired and lazy actually but it would be a waste if i keep it to myself. it was a 2 days 1 night trip. went to veterinary research institute in ipoh. we were brought to few labs which were parasitology, serology and bacteriology. so, lets the pictures tell the story.....

somewhere in the institute

bacteria growth on agar

bacteria growth on blood agar - cow's blood cause it's very nutritious

a device used to count colonies of bacteria

(how easy, we were counting like mad when we were doing microbes last sem. ish!)

parasites seen under microscope

video at below

yea, this whole thing is parasite
(eew...)

well, been labeled clearly

maggots

(bleks...)

all kinds of nematode parasites

trematode parasites

parasites in dog's heart, the thin strands on the hole

cacing

er, didn't pay attention when explanation was made bout this...commonly found in human i think

ahh, fellow friends aka future biology teachers

then, after that visit, we headed to gunung lang, also in ipoh, a place situated totally out of expectation. very, very relaxed there. wish i am there again and lay myself on the grass staring at the sky breathing in fresh air. aaah.....

as the trip was named, field trip, so there were tasks and report after that. what a sacrifice. surprisingly we weren't even mind bout the tasks given besides report cause the place was so relaxing that we actually enjoyed doing it. let me list out the tasks....

mammal observing and trapping
birds watching
insects catching and trapping
aquatic organism
sample water
plant collection

again, let pictures replace the words

waiting for the boats to get across

anak ikan mengikut encik tu

briefing by lecturer....in other words assignment time

forcing and carefully keep the whatever caught

hah, group members start to do catching

look pro, aint we?

dragonfly that we caught

butterfly with reproductive system poking out

'weapons' to trap animals

kebanggaan....my group the last group to put the trap happened to be the only group managed to trap animal....woohoo....

ops, forget the name of the species

watching and counting birds

catching fish

digging to bury bottle to trap insects

babi-q time!!!!

masa untuk makan malam!!!!!!! eh, baca doa

arrangging the plants plucked for project

one of the cave found there

our campsites

one of the birds watching tower

scenary from birds watching tower

incomplete group photo

eggs boiling vs life

2009-03-12T00:30:00.004+08:00

first of all... *sigh.

why?

i suppose to prepare myself 2 half boiled eggs for breakfast this morning and ended up to be 98% boiled eggs. what an egg boiler failure. then while i was eating, my mind was trying to diagnose my mistake, i accidently realised that life is similar to boiling eggs.

i will not know how long it takes to boil a quarter boiled, half boiled, three quarter boiled or boiled egg unless i start trying to boil one. in reality, we will not know if whatever suit us not or we like it not unless we try it out.

when i have tried boiling, i may get the half boiled eggs right or i may get other kinds of eggs instead. similarly in life, when we already have the aims in mind, we dont always achieve what we want and sometimes we are slapped with disappointments.

but in order to get my half boiled eggs, i trying boiling and boiling until i'm able to estimate the time and get good half boiled eggs. in reality, even though we fail, we continue to fight till we fulfill our dreams.

when i keep having raw eggs as the result, i finally change my method of boiling by dumping the eggs into the kettle and let them boil with the water. in reality, when we keep failing, we will change strategies or consulting friends, family, counsellor or anyone we feel comfortable.

even its raw, i still swallow them no matter what because they are my breakfast and continue my day as i've taken a great breakfast. in reality, even though we are facing difficult times and struggling, still, we keep on going and continue living like how its suppose to be.

so i try and try, never letting the raw eggs haunt me. as i tried, i'm getting better. similarly, don't be easily knocked down but when we practise more, we will and are getting better.

then when i already good at boiling eggs using the wok but because wok is unavailable, i use kettle back. as the result, i ate 98% boiled eggs today instead of half boiled eggs. in reality, we will not always in our comfort zone. we will be facing lotsa changes and bad things may happen when we are new or relocate.

but because i have experiences in boiling eggs using kettle, my skills in boiling wont be that suckz. so, today will be the control and i will improve by tomorrow by changing the independant variable. similarly, when we have experiences, we can survive in anywhere. our mistakes today will be lessons for tomorrow.

however, i will not know what kind of eggs i've boiled until i break them. just like our lives, we will not know what will happen to us unless we keep on moving, looking forward and reach for the day.

so ya, thats what i've figured out.

not good

2009-03-10T04:19:00.004+08:00

for unknown reason, i'm depressed right now and also the uneasy feelings where i felt like tearing up myself into pieces. there's this something, something heavy pressing my chest making me hard to breathe. do you call this tension? guess so since all my assignments gonna due soon as in really soon. aaah....

308 now

2009-03-09T17:37:00.002+08:00

yey, ~100 chapters are read within 10days !!!

lets ride and be young

2009-03-09T02:14:00.002+08:00

how cool! i came across this article stating that a scientific study has been carried out in Japan and it said that riding motorcycle helped to keep the motorcyclist young. what a discovery!!!!!
is that the reason i am young and have better mental condition???? hehehe....

its true....go check it out

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090304/tts-lifestyle-health-japan-motorcycles-7d7070a.html

bazir saja

2009-03-07T22:43:00.005+08:00

what's so wrong teaching and learning science and math in english?

hmmmmm......???

????

?????

not that i don't know completely since its so obvious malays are the one making such a big fuss about it but really don't understand the use of those people protesting out there. what a waste of time, energy, money, tear gas and news column.
aduhai, ketidakmatangan

if simply by protesting it can decides and changes the rules and laws of the country; then every chinese, indians, sikh and the rest of the races will be marching in the town
*sigh

kalau sendiri tidak ada semangat belajar, semangat berjuang dan semangat maju diri, bahasa apa pun tak ada gunanya..... fikir-fikirlah

sign of ageing back in action

2009-03-02T00:14:00.005+08:00

as i watched my parents heading to the car under the superb heavy rain, there was this mixed feeling of mine arose in me.

feelings of reluctant, worry, guilty and accountability rushed in me.

i didnt know why but i was really worry for my parents to drive home after dropping me in tm. main factor would be the heavy pour and besides both of them looked rather tired. perhaps bro was usually traveling with them lately but now back to the old couple traveling by themselves.

this wasn't my first time feeling so but somehow the feelings struck me again today after quite a long time.

sign of ageing i suppose.

as i getting older, its not only me stacking up my age but my parents as well, thats when i feel they will need someone anytime.

because of that, the more i feel i should be by their sides, taking care of them or at least be with them.

its scary as day passing by, we never know who's leaving who but one thing for sure, everyone is a step closer to leave the world as the clock ticks.

so, besides depending 100% on god, whenever i can, i'l be going back because i know they want me to. yes, they do! dont ever doubt about that.

and thats y my fella friends in kl, its very rare of me to go kl unless i'm with my family or special case.

it's march...bulan tiga sudah tiba

2009-03-01T18:21:00.006+08:00

in case anyone of you are too busy that you happen to forget there's this HUGE changes that gonna occur in our beloved country, think hard....think deep.... its MARCH now,.. yea, ITS MARCH NOW, and its the month where our prime minister chose to step down. remember? he announced it last year.

so, malaysia soon to have new pm! [duh!] baguih???? tak baguih??? tak tau la. and our new pm is none other than najib..... unless.... something somewhere in the middle goes wrong. its better not to say how majority or how minority actually supporting najib to be pm but its obvious that our politic is unstable...em, very da ~~unstable~~. in such case, i suggest anyone reading this and of course you are staying in malaysia, load your stock (food esp) at home asap, at least enough for you to survive for a month.

a'ah, anda tidak dapat menjangka apa yang bakal menanti anda/ orang malaysia. setidak-tidaknya dengan adanya makanan kita boleh kunci rumah, goyang kaki, tengok dvd, makan suka hati. darurat pun tak takut. hahaha!

i am addicted

2009-02-27T23:06:00.005+08:00

aha, i'm so addicted! so addicted into reading conan. so addicted that i actually went to campus to read it online because line failure in hostel. so addicted that i was ignoring my quiz today but kept on reading it. so addicted that i actually went under the rain for the sake of it. ~doosh~ aduhai~~~~~

somehow its fun to know that i have something to do when i have nothing to do. now my free time, boring time, break time, busy time, anytime is filled with something. hehe... ya, comic is what i mean! hooray, conan is back!

its just weird cause i knew the website for quite some time but at that time i found out that the feeling of reading it online and reading the book was not the same. and fussy me just save that web address and didnt bother to visit it. but recently, due to neverending work, it just flashed to my mind to read detective conan. then i realised it's just as fun as reading it on book though i still do prefer doing my reading while holding the book. ah, just so traditional me. apa apapun, ah yes, i'm an addict now!!!!!!

addict....addict....addict......

words of self disappointment

2009-02-24T14:30:00.002+08:00

sort of frust with my stupidity and uselessness. even a call, i couldnt handled it. plan A failed and for plan B, so far no response. guess its the same with plan A - 'lok hai cui liau'. when plans failed, no result will be seen, no one will ever know that i actually done something, no one will ever know that i actually put effort in planning and accomplishing my plan, no one will ever know that i actually have the intention to do it, even, no one will believe me. no matter how its mentioned, failed means failed. its almost equal to none. i'm too heartbroken to be questioned on my sincerity and effort, best is to just keep it to myself. since i'm famous of heartless, insensitive and useless, not much expectation will be from me though. so it doesnt matter. only me and god.....

-and it shall be sealed-

ah, the day

2009-02-21T20:13:00.004+08:00

i always believe that sleep can be replaced. you know something like plus minus calculation.

for example, today have more than 12 hours sleep so the day after take only 6 hours sleep.

or today stay up whole night, then take 3hours nap, 6hours sleep in the third day and when time is available, sleep whole day to get the average of 8-10 hours sleep.

maybe i hv belief in that silly theory of mine so it kinda work for me. haha!!!!

right now, all i'm waiting is the day. aaah~~~ the day where i get to sleep......
and sleep...
and sleep.....
to replace all my sleeping debts.

panas

2009-02-17T17:07:00.003+08:00

hot hOT HOT!!!!!!

its so hot...

so hot that i still feel hot even i'm sitting under the fan...

so hot that i sweat when i'm having my meals...

so hot that i even sweat when i'm asleep...

so hot that i wake up from my sleep...

so hot that i bathe so many times...

so hot that my face turns red for no reason...

so hot that i cant bear wearing my bras...

so hot that i feel glad i still see sunshine...

so hot that i know my body system is working well...

so hot that i'm happy knowing i'm in malaysia...

so hot so hot SOOOO SOOOOOOO HOT!!!!!!

another ridiculous political issue

2009-02-17T16:06:00.002+08:00

seems like politicans nowadays getting to lose their patience and very obvious that they want power desperately despite what kinds of techniques used as long as they can defeat their competitors. ya, even those techniques are beyond morals, respect and dignity.

not long ago, laws are misused and now the pride of a woman becomes one of the weapons. distributing nude photos are so popular and common now as it has been blended into one of the usual daily news just like any other abusion, pollution, education and economic news.

i dont know how a so called islamic country with majority islam leaders can end up with all these dirty techniques. this is truly an immoral, wicked and disrespectful act.

the very surface observation of mine, the overview i can make is this.....

due to the awareness of people, many other parties start to speak out and arise. when the power is distributed fairly, it makes no party any stronger as all supporters are equally the same. this in fact has made one particular party feels very uncomfortable (perhaps it feels challenged). therefore, this party no longer able to tolerate and very obvious want to take full control of the country. the party choose to eliminate other parties that are interfering. the types of ways used are what we see now.

black on 10th feb

2009-02-07T22:55:00.007+08:00

according to the message i received hours ago, its very obvious it showed dissatisfaction of some people who started the chain regarding how bn 'snatched' perak from pakatan. the unknown decided to wear black and asked other perakians who love perak to join as well on 10 of february 2009. erm, its sign of anger and rejection to new government as well as a way of supporting nizar.

in addition, any perakians who spread that msg around and join that kinda i would say protest on that particular tuesday they are those who love perak and whoever that are not they dont love perak. hmmmm..... i deleted the mesage though. however that did not mean my love to perak less than any other perakian.

selamat tinggal buat selama-lamanya

2009-02-07T02:44:00.003+08:00

"bila ajal sudah tiba, kita terima sajalah"

what else could be said when there was a sudden news of death?

my coach, en.affendi, also my platoon coach, might not be related to me genetically but his loss was felt as much as the loss of a relative as he treated us just like his own children.

he would usually seen sitting on the table outside the office with both his legs hanging and swinging in the air while he's smoking. he would always be the first to greet cheerfully with a cute broad smile on his face once i reached office.

he was such a soft spoken man even during training. he never scold us even we marched terribly and slept in his law classes instead he taught us with lotsa patience, care and love.

the last i saw him was on wednesday when i sent some cookies and oranges to office. was joking with him and listening to the talk of an aged and experienced man. he just loved to talk and talk and talk....

but tonight, all these remained as memories as he left this world 3-4 hours ago. a sudden attack, just an attack on the heart so easily god grabbed a man's life from us.

may you rest in peace.

semakin menjadi-jadi...

2009-02-06T02:29:00.003+08:00

ever since election i hardly cared for politics cause too much of conflicts, protests and dramas. just too sick with those craps.

until recently what happened in perak i personally felt that it was a saddening thing. if i were to vote for those bloody two assemblymen, i would felt more shameful.

those so called wakil rakyat didn’t seem to play their parts and kept letting the people down.

everything was good, great, fine, ya, sure, tak ada masalah, saya akan..., jgn risau, sudah tentu during pre-election, happily promoting themselves to get votes but see what happened after they were voted??? every words and promises was bullshit!!!!! well, as expected aint it?

then, parties became the issues.

for goodness sake, party? who cares which party once you win the election? irresponsible nonsensical idiotic people simply changed parties here and there, then resigned or whatsoever for their own benefits. seriously pissed with those bastards.

did they actually realise what are their roles all about???

let me....

“hei, mangkuk wakil rakyat, tugas kau bukan tukar atau pilih parti mana yang kau suka keluar masuk dan suka suka letak jawatan. tugas kau adalah berkhidmat untuk rakyat demi rakyat. tak kisahlah parti mana pun sebab yang penting dan paling utama adalah menyumbang dan membaiki hidup rakyat yang percaya dan undi kau!!!!"

i have to be clear here that i’m cartainly not bias towards any party. i don’t care whether BN or pakatan rakyat but what drawn my anger is that menteri besar is not respected, simply changed / forced to resign without considering the opinions of perakians and perak simply taken over by other party. apa ni?????

did anyone ask perakians whether they wana change pucuk kepimpinan?

did anyone ask them do they prefer to be pro-government or opposition?

did anyone ask them whether they prefer nizar or zambry????

NO!!! the answer is NO!!!! NO NO NOOOOO!!!!!!!

man what the hell? is this the way democracy is practised?

i personally feel that state election should be carried out even though i know it may be money, energy and time comsuming. thats the best way for perakians to tell the country what they feel and which they choose. after all, thats what we call democracy or 'democracy'.

aduhai....

2009-02-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

serabutnya hidup saya

kelam kabut

tak terurus

kerja berlambak tapi semua tak terjalan, menghitung hari menunggu masa, tertunggak saje

aduhai

most probably a no

2009-02-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

i should be grateful (?), proud (?) or whatever i should when i was told by my roommate whom she kindly checked for me that my name was listed in the ‘program kecemerlangan something something....’. but no! instead it is troubling me since the moment i know i hv (compulsory) to attend that program or seminar or talk or whatsoever. There are positives and negatives

should be proud cause :

be meeting uni’s brilliant students (but who cares?)
given a great honour to attend such thing as its limited and chosen only by university (though i have no idea at all what’s that all about
never know what kind of advantage will be offered (scholarship or tips or smtg like that)

troublesome cause :

the thing will be on a Sunday which is also the day i hv no training and also a public holiday!!! c’mon, its thaipusam (be considerate to the hindus!!! though i’m not)
clashes with my plan of going to taiping with coursemates to do assignment and at the same time balik kampung!!!
i hv limited time to show them how great my hometown is (horrible!)

Oh why of all days????

pai ti kong

2009-02-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

yes, yes!!!!! after TWO times missing pai ti kong, at last i pai for this year!!!!!!

two years made me felt like i missed pai ti kong for twenty years and so i insisted to pai this year even though i ponteng 2 classes for monday. ah, whatever it was i got those classes' attendance settled in a good way. ooo yea.... smart me smart me....

after missing two times, i realised it was still that merry in fact merrier (comparing two years back) even though it was so called recession this year, fire cracking everywhere. now, not only the red firecrackers >>>>>piN pIn PaNg pANg<<<<<, some really spent for huge fireworks. how 'kam kai' and 'uu lui'!!!

dear god

2009-02-02T18:56:00.001+08:00

may my phone be blessed with good health.....

discharged!

2009-01-31T00:01:00.003+08:00

glad is the word.

no more frustration.

phone finally back to normal...

when?

2009-01-29T22:24:00.002+08:00

missing someone is sickenning at times. if only it stops...

filling up boredom

2009-01-24T21:38:00.007+08:00

it took a pretty long time for my father and brother to appear to fetch me back from my dental check up. so while i waited outside the ng clinic, i stood there looking at the cars passing one by one. thats the very usual thing i did when i was waiting for my turn at the upstair in the clinic too in case no one knew bout it.

as 2009 started, everyone in the car were to put on their safety belts. so as i waited and out of curiousity, i decided to start to do a small research after some time.

started my research and here the report......

objective --> to determine malaysians do not wear safety belts at the back seats

metodology --> count the number of cars with back passenger without safety belts

expected result --> most of them do not wear safety belts

target --> cars fixed with belts and with passengers at the back

place --> that particular junction particular road

time duration --> 32 minutes

numbers of cars --> 55

result --> 43 outta 55

conclusion --> 78% do not wear safety belts and thus they do not obey law.

objective achieved!

habislaa cepat!!!!!!

2009-01-22T20:47:00.003+08:00

apa ni????!!!!!

been stucked with my genetic tutorial for dayssssssss

genetic may looks simple and interesting - crossing here and there

but it is way confusing and complicated.... ah!

get my first tutorial done please!!!!!!!

*doosh***

errghhhh......

2009-01-20T14:06:00.001+08:00

i am seriously very frustrated with my phone now.

feel like throwing it and see it crash......

kepulangannya....

2009-01-17T15:44:00.004+08:00

less than 3hours i decided to return the new shoes. instead i took my broken shoes for repair and now they are back serving me!!!!! =)

the old is always the best....

kepatahan kasut kawad

2009-01-17T10:26:00.005+08:00

hah, my shoes saved me from kawad session today.

the back of my kawad shoes peeled off/broken and so i have no shoes and that is why i'm sitting here blogging in the office while the rest under the shining sun marching.

the best is that i need not have to use ex-senior's shoes which are now dumping in the store room to replace mine but instead i'm given a brand new one.

woohooo.... but i hv to spend money to fix something extra to protect the back of my new shoes.

what a day!!!

2009-01-13T21:12:00.000+08:00

it was raining and i was stucked in the rain where my bike was out of my sight. i was furious cause i waited so long for the rain to stop and yet i still got wet. what a waste of time.

back to my bike, i realized a note hidden in my helmet.

ah, mysterious....

curiously i took and read.....and soon i found out, that writer of the note crashed my plate number.

aahhh!!!!! darn!!!!

but...

i wondered if i was lucky or unlucky because that person was kind and honest enough to tell me, left me a note with apology, name and contact number for her to settle the bill of damage.

hrmm....

and guess what, she really did pay me the next day after i fixed it.

wow! what a human nowadays! unbelievable!!!!!!

homesick

2009-01-05T21:39:00.001+08:00

yesterday i went back to begin another new semester again.

as usual the very first thing to do was cleaning, packing, unpacking, arranging and rearranging once i reached my hostel, trying to make my room as comfy as possible. thats when i realised i was one fussy fella too.

by the time i finished, it was already 9smtg and others already had their food as some had finished clearing as they reached day before while roommate took dinner break earlier which i refused.

after i completed my task only then i had the appetite to have my food brought all the way from home.

as i was sitting down alone in the living room, on the dining table, feeding myself, suddenly.... i felt lonely.

i missed home and family, my mom esp most probably i was eating her food.

and then thats when this someone popped in my mind.

and i started to have flashback
just like the projector,
one....
by
one.....
images flashed...
and flashed....
memories of yesteryears

i know i wasnt far from home not at all but the little sorrow feeling was hard to be avoided esp when loneliness filled me out of the blue. and thank goodness i'm used to being alone here.

~2009~

2009-01-04T02:32:00.006+08:00

needless to say, its 2009 now. duh!

i read my last year's resolution and surprisingly i managed to complete most of them!!!! yey!!!! only those who read my previous blog will know bout the list.

so as new year comes, so will be the list. here it goes for this year.....

score higher and higher and HIGHEST pointer
get my diving license
successfully passing out from suksis
improve my communication skills
pray that my wishes will come true

my list reduced from 22 items to only 5. god knows why. being contented with my life again i guess.

i really hope my prayers will be heard and answered cause those wishes meant most to me now. i believe i can achieve 1-4 if i work on them but for 5 only god can help.

nowhere to be found

2008-12-03T20:55:00.004+08:00

- vanishing from everyone - to a place nobody knows me - a place with nobody - leaving everything behind - taking care of nothing - and - nothing bothering me - only me - and - me - and - my thoughts - taking me deep to my heart - to my desire -

back from jungle

2008-12-01T16:58:00.010+08:00

goodness! my previous blog looks so dull. thats the result of writing when i was sleepy. whole damn thing with words, words and more black words all together and i could imagine how people rethink and rethink to read it. but no choice, had to blog it as reference when i wana do report.

i'm tired too now, completed my pga training hours ago. oh! pga stands for pasukan gerakan am and the duty involves almost everything. thats y its am = general.

campsite was in hutan lipur sg. selisik. again, never heard of such a place. its in selangor, very near to selangor-perak border, therefore we went through behrang. the training was ok, not as bad as i imagine. we were given lectures for first and second days about 'kawad pengkalan', map reading, compass, survival tips in jungle which included types of traps, ways to make the traps, types of plants whether edible or beneficial during crucial hours and ways to handle/escape from invisible objects from other dimension. we cooked our own meals too and by now i learnt up the skills in cooking in the jungle with condition proper equipment provided. hehe.

whats cool bout this camp was that i got to blew off some explosive stuff. it sounded like a bomb and it felt like playing fireworks. i forgot whats it called. the sound just reminded me of chinese new year. the difference was that i was doing it legally. thats way more fun man.

there was this session where we were asked to find checkpoints in the jungle at night with lousy compass. it supposed to be exciting but unfortunately, the girls in my group too afraid and the guys happened to act gentlemen and protective and therefore, girls' movements were limited while the guys wander around, searching for missing checkpoints by their own most of the time. adeh.... how not cool and disappointed. ish!

another session was where we were dumped in the jungle individually near midnight. i guess it was around 15-20minutes, apparently nothing much could be done but to sit still, looking 360 deg, staring at the skysad no star was seen, listening to various of sound and also donating blood to quito. as it started to be real quiet, stupid stuff popped in my mind which made me pretty freaked out at times. but fortunately or unfortunately i wasnt disturbed. however, later then, my friends told me they saw a black figure droping by at the people at the back of me but stopped when the figure coming very near me. you see, we were situated a few meters away so we could sort of saw black figures of us. they thought it was one of the trainers checking on us but it shouldnt be. why?

the trainers explained they were up the hill all the time and people left up there could be the witness.
other trainers were out of the track and somewhere in the jungle at their own spots checking on us from far.
there were 63 of us which made the distance from the first to the last person rather far and our trainers would take time to come down to check on us.
i was sure no one was near me cause i was awake all the time and looking around.

aah....mEnaKUtkaN!
its scary to think how close the thing actually got so close to me IF what my friends said were true.

suksis practical training in teluk intan

2008-11-27T23:49:00.003+08:00

just back from teluk intan. had practical over there for 4 days but to be exact its only a 2 day working experiences.

first day which was on 24th, the first place we landed was jabatan imegresin malaysia smtg seems not right with the spelling of imegresin. did i spell it wrongly? anyway, its in langkap, perak. erm, talking about langkap, i seriously had no idea there's such a place. well, there's where those illegal foreigners were sent and kept. i mean the jabatan imegresin not langkap the town. its not only in perak but in every state here. i even learnt a few new places from where they were built. for example, in terengganu - ajil and pahang - kemayan. weird unknown name. those captured stay there while waiting to be sent back to their countries or to be brought to the court for certain crimes they committed. most importantly was to send them back to where they belong. government actually wasted so much money on them, not only on the logistic, accomodation but, lucky people, they are provided with food. the money spent on them would bring more comfort for those poor and needed malaysians.
oh oh, the place!!!! the moment i looked around the area, first thing came to my mind was prison break. i couldnt stop myself from comparing the scenes in prison break and what i saw there. the atmosphere was quite similar to prison but yet its not a prison over there. for guys, there were 4 blocks and 1 for the women + kids. the block was a long building with nothing in there. toilets were outside. no blankets, no bed, no nothing but a pair of tahanan clothes for them. security there were not bad. there are lock at the door and outside the building was surrounded by usual metal sort of gate seen with blades on the top curling around from one end to another. moreover RELA workers were just outside the building guarding them. when i got the chance to visit the block in nearer distance, the place where they spend most of their time and also where they sleep, eat and hang around, i was thinking if michael in prison break has to break out from there, what will be the ways? i was even thinking if i so happen to be locked there, how am i suppose to get myself out. haha, guess i watched too much of that show.

second day was the first day of me working as and with the police in ipd hilir perak. i got a cool shift, 3pm-7pm and 3am - 7am for 2 continuous days. others were given 7am-11am & 7pm-11pm and 11am-3am & 11pm-3am.

first shift (3pm-7pm) - i was situated in bilik gerakan. thats the control room when you get to check details of every malaysians, the room where you get to listen to those messages/information through walkie talkie, receive calls from the public, to know the location of the patrol car/police and only the room where you av ethe power instruct the police in mpv (mobile patrol vehicle) to go from a place to another. i also got to know the system used in the force. i knew how to detect a person whether he's clean or wanted or used to commit crimes. also ways to detect the status of the vehicles whether they were owned, stolen or plate number changed as well as the owner of the vehicle and the activation date for raod tax. i got to read those messages sent trough rakan cop and reports done in hilir perak. its fun and i checked, i aint listed in wanted list, never commit any crime. in other words, i'm clean and clear - good citizen for sure! peace!

second shift (3am-7pm) - very excited to be working at this hour. this time i was located in teluk intan police station. because its late at night and the person in charge was so kind that he only let the guys to patrol and the girls stayed indoor. so 'kind' of him! so, basically i learnt to receive reports. i should say i learnt on my own. the police on duty not really explaining so to learn was to observe. from my observation, i guess i manage to conclude how the procedure was carried. then a man, policeman as well working in the lokap or you call that jail(?) kindly offered us a visit there. thats my first to see cells, criminals or suspects, visitors' room with phone and other stuff closely. its quite smelly cause they pee-d in their own cells. guess they were not that civilised to make a flush after their business. but again, its fun to see smtg that mostly and only can be seen on tv. bad thing was i had to bear with the smoke and the smell of their cigarettes. the police there were such heavy smokers. eew! i felt polluted (my lungs).

third shift (3pm-7pm) - this time i got to be out to town as i was located in mpv department. yup, another fun thing, got to sit in the patrol car and 'yau che hor'. this 'yau che hor' definitely different from usual one as i was sitting in a car printed 'polis', wearing my uniform and had the chance to put on bullet proof jacket. i definitely looked smart and needless to say, i was a police. during the patrol, got to learn how the police handled the public and certain situations and also applying the laws. at that time, managed to witness the police in charge saman a car. bisides that, got the chance to report to control room/ bilik gerakan informing the location of the car. its always fun to play with walkie talkie. hehe... later because there were 2 teenagers caught at the road block so the police in charge of me had to send them back to police station. so while waiting for them to pick me and my teammate, we checked and helped around at the road block. we checked on motorcyclists' id, license and road tax.

fourth shift (3m-7am) - was sent to hutan melintang police station, a 30 minutes drive place for ipd hilir perak. over there, got to join the police in during their bit, smtg similar to patrolling too. went around each and every corners of hutan melintang to ensure the safety. surprisingly, the people there were rich despite the name of the town. just found out that they earned a lot through the water resourses as they contributed almost 30% to the food supply (water resourses) in malaysia. therefore, i could see mostly big beautiful houses during the patrol. darn! unknown rich people. the drive around the housing areas took around an hour half. it was a great experience to see the places of others.

i'm really glad that i join suksis. i wouldnt get to experience all these if i'm not a police for now. its stil unsure whether police might be my choice in future but honestly it did increased my interest to become one.

tmrw will be the beginning of another challenging activity. its pga - training in the jungle. i'm quite excited but at the same time i'm pretty anxious and scared of the tiny invisible unwanted intruders only a lil. anyways, nothing to be afraid of. erm, ya. think nothing and will be nothing.

dreams

2008-11-22T21:24:00.003+08:00

i' m curious. i'm always curious bout it. never not wondering whats it all about.

dreams????
as in those that only bump me when i sleep.

why?
why do i dream?
do they mean something? anything?
do they serve as some hints or what?
do they reflect on my life?
do they bring the previous memories back to me? like my past? last lifetimes?
do they indicate my future? few days from now? few years or next lifetimes?
do they tell me what i miss/want/wish most? that will be sad cause i only experience it from dreaming but better that nothing
or they just something that means nothing. just to bother my thoughts and make me curious like now?

how do dreams come to me?
from god?
my imaginations?
i really wish my curiosity can be cleared but if there is someone to tell me bout it, how true can it be? if there is a theory behind it, how far can i believe it? its a question with more questions. but i'm interested to know what others think bout it. it will be fun to share different perceptions expecially from different kinds of people.

pigging time!

2008-11-13T16:34:00.002+08:00

feels good to know that its over. its true that when you feel down, more negative stuff will come.... and stack..... and stack..... and stack on you. thank god, i manage to push myself through it and here i am, smiling to myself, waving my 5th semester farewell. most important, i can breathe so much better now.

now its time to enjoy and i will be home with my pigging days soon. oh yea... even though not for long as my training and activities on next 2weeks.

happy pigging to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hard time

2008-11-13T00:54:00.003+08:00

exam is like 8hours from now and i'm stil struggling with it. still hv few chapters to go equivalent to hundreds of slides.

i really feel miserable now and wish it will end asap.

what makes my night worse is that i'm reading chemistry and its organic chemistry that i hell take long time to figure out whats whats the words telling me. i cant read like a bullet train cause i will get myself in deep shit answering the paper then. hell!

i already prepared myself to be awake. if to be awake whole night then i will be since its my last paper but i hope not.

...........................

i'm exhausted, very.

hard to breathe well, really.

i dont feel good, extremely.

i want to cry but i cant - hv nothing to stimulate my tears.

please dont be lazy to poo

2008-11-04T14:35:00.004+08:00

humans contain 10^14 of bacterial cells compared to 10^13 of human cells. 10% of our dry weight is bacterial and they are mostly in large intestine. our feces or shit to be common is 1/3 bacteria.

so! if you dont like to pangsai or if you dont pangsai then you are penternak bacteria. penternak do earn large sum of money but penternak bacteria, i doubt it unless you are scientist that smart enough to make good use of yourself or the bacteria you ternak interest the scientists then you probably will be rich. if not, i'm sure that you gonna make doctor earns large sum instead.

we are from bacteria????

2008-11-04T13:52:00.004+08:00

according to science, what organisms today are all evolved from bacteria. in other words, human beings known as the most advanced organisms also evolved from bacteria. if you follow biodiversity closely, every living things are connected. the fact is depends on how far or closely related because one organism is evolved from another and it continued to evolve and evolve to form new and many more species, which explain the reasons of the various species we have today.

digesting the facts and it should be something like.... our ancestors are specifically not the ancestors we think they are if for chinese will be chinaman back in china and according to surnames but we sort of sharing the same ancestors as pigs, dogs, elephants, ants, worms, scorpions, fish, sponges, starfish, mushroom, plankton and whatever living organisms you name it. because our ancestors of all ancestors are bacteria called cyanobacteria!

aha!

well, theoretically it maybe a yes esp humans since we are the most advanced organisms so we evolve from animals and also all the living organisms in the world but dude, we dont call the pig or the grass, 'greatgreatgreatgreaaaaaaaat......grandfather', do we? adeh.

anyways, thats not suppose to be the right way to analyse the facts of science but its interesting though. alright, gotta back to microbes and will see what else to share.

obsession

2008-11-04T12:33:00.004+08:00

i have to admit that i'm really obsessed about it - my watch. yea..my orange watch as you can see, its displayed just beside but its upside down.

somehow, i cant take my eyes off it. i like it so so much and i thank my mum for that. oh, papa too cause he paid for it. muaks*

i can actually stare at it and watch every needles move, listening to every tick... tick... tick..., from seconds to minutes which then make me realise that the time is moving as it is really moving and keeps on moving and (me!) actually wasting my time. hell ya.

12 days war

2008-11-02T16:15:00.005+08:00

it comes again...

no choice but to face it.

its late, still have a lot to cover...

but its okay,

i gotta be calm and believe its never too late.

only 12days to struggle.....

get the nonsense outta my brain

and get the words in my head

12 days

and thats the end of it till it comes the next time

have faith in myself

and do it!

set my aim

and do it!!!!!

funny coursemate

2008-10-22T11:41:00.003+08:00

yesterday was my university election day. it wasnt as merry as last year but obviously there were students that competing and voting. well, i was one that voted.
when i was blogging the previous blog at the cafe yesterday, there were this group of students mostly were the students representatives for last year, students that sort of actively involved in the university's program and students that competiting for the this year's election. they loved to hang around the cafe and i was so coincidently there. when they finished their food and businesses, duh, they went off and one of them who happened to be my coursemate/classmate walked passed me and said,

' thanks for your vote!'

i was like a lil' shocked and replied,

'huh? macam mana kamu tahu?'

and she said,

'well, i know you. thanks for your support and a broad smile'

off she went with that noisy group.

i was amused with her confidence that she actually thought i was voting for her. damn damn. i bet she didnt know that there were rumours among the coursemates of not voting for her. even her clique told us that they wouldnt be voting for her so how did she expect us or me to vote for her to represent our faculty. question mark????

greeeeeeen

2008-10-21T17:24:00.004+08:00

when i was on the way back from kl on sunday, there was this place that i drove passed. its a place with lake at first then trees and hills all around. i felt good surrounded by them. the green comforted my eyes. perhaps its psychology cause i felt fresh even though there were cars that released pretty thick black smoke due to the cars' quality the road is up and downhill you see. throughout my way, there were people at the roadsides. some were out for a day out, some went fishing, swimming and other activities and some even with buckets to fill in water from the pipe, i didnt know why but i guess they had reasons or beliefs about the water. i had the urge to stopby and wanted to stare at the nature. but for safety i decided not to. at that times, i really wished the road would never end. it was really a peaceful and harmony moment. here are some photos i managed to capture....

stay silence

2008-10-19T02:42:00.003+08:00

words are in fact very powerful especially words that came out from one without filtration. those words came out so fast and straight forward that they actually hurt someone or anyone. *sigh.... me again i'm talking about here. sometimes i just couldnt control myself especially when i got so comfortable with my close/ good friends that whatever we felt like saying, we just said it without much considerations. we critized each other 'kao kao' and all we had were laughters cause we knew we were joking, we wouldn't mind and its for our own good.

it was not a bad thing until i brought that attitude back to my campus and hostel. the first week itself when i got back after raya break, i made my friend/ex-roommate cried. we were talking and joking around until a part where i pointed out smtg about her, the whole conversations went not right. please...they knew how straight forward i was and besides she was nicely joking with me and moreover she was my roommate, i assumed she should at least knew me a little more than others but hell NO. those listenning to the conversations knew i was telling the truth but the way i spoke it was quite harsh to her cause i didnt feel its harsh. moreover because all these while no one ever commented her so she took it for granted and now i spoke it out which caused the thing to become worse. its so true that 'siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedasnya'.

when i realised i should kept my mouth shut, i knew its oo-oh,damn. i nicely apologized to her but she ignored me. ah, whatever. later when i off for training, she cried in the office. during training, my coach mentioned to my platoon of her crying and asked whoever that made her cried to comfort her. i was like what da! i am so not going to do so. its not my fault and besides i apologized. in her dream to want me to comfort her. then during lunch, the case was mentioned again by my officer. she asked me to say smtg nice and comfort her. i was again like hah, boleh blah!

you may think whats the big problem to go and comfort her and get the mess cleared. ego? it had nothing or maybe a little to do with my ego. but one, i apologized because i knew she couldnt accept my words. two, what i said was true thats why she cried because she felt bad. three, when asked for reason of her crying, she only explained half. she didnt tell the whole damn thing. and four, its not my fault totally. and so i decided to just ignored the whole incident.

i thought it only happened to not close friend but *sigh, best friend pun terasa. speechless.

so, you only want me to say words that you like to hear and not words that what i feel???

i know that the whole main point here is to think before i speak, construct and reconstruct my sentences or convey it in a better way but i tel you, if i think i wont speak it out anymore.

i understand that different people have different sensitivities. but too bad i only realise it when it occur. i'm sorry that comforting is hard for me especially when its set in my mind that its not fault and not feeling guilty. i dont expect people to change or accept my style. so i control myself but neither do i can change in a short time. in the meantime, just keep my mouth shut, ignore everything and be cool.

beauty of the space

2008-10-13T14:21:00.003+08:00

have you ever look at the moon so close that even though there are holes and holes on the moon, it is still very beautiful??? i did!!!!!! and i tel you, it was darn amazing how technology today can pulled me so much closer of the moon to my sight. its an fascinating moment and i was amused.

besides moon, i learned that the shiny thing at the sky which all the while i labelled it as star was actually jupiter. yea, its jupiter, the fifth planet in our milky way!!!!!!! if we can see jupiter, of course we can see mars and venus as well. mars can be seen around january or early of the year. oh, even saturn. a man showed me the photos of saturn he took with his camera, god dammit, it was beautiful.....in case you forget saturn is the most beautiful planet. you know the one with the ring. oooo....

apart from those, i was taken for a ride to space by sight to explore those creations that god knows their existense. now, i know what is nebula, types of nebula, how many constellations and a brief view of the space. everything was so mesmerizing.

so, do you know what is nebula? it is where the stars are born. there are open nebula, globular nebula and orion nebula. why orion nebula? cause it is at the orion erm, know what is orion right?

i always have this dream to have a house small or medium one will do and beside it is a large wide field with trees and river at the side and hills can be seen from far. so green, fresh and relax where i can lay down and look at the sky with no worries. it is better if there's such place in north pole cause there's where we can see polaris upright and aurora but its north pole i'm talking about. aaah, dream.

using three different telescopes above to capture those photos below. yup, i took the photos with my camera phone

cool....i love it

2008-10-03T22:00:00.041+08:00

never in my life i have such a big bruise like i have now. say me crazy but it feels good. haha! thanks to paintball the ball. it hit my fleshy thigh and left a sun look alike bruise. the moment the bullet hit me, i was like dammit but it gave me a great feeling. i didn't know why perhaps since small i like bruises and my hobby is pressing/rubbing whether my own or others' bruises. i like the pain and because i kept pressing my bruises thats y they never last long.

back to paintball, less than 2 min, i was shot again at the side of my body but it didnt hurt surprisingly. was doubting what people said as it wasn't as painful as described but actually i was saved by the jacket. adeh....how lucky... i like paintball. its fun and exciting regarding to shoot or being shot. and its not only about games, its about strategies, shooting skills and teamwork. something like war.

after 2 hours

after 6 hours

day 2, after 29 hours

tak ada kesedaran sivik langsung....

2008-10-02T00:32:00.004+08:00

people nowadays are getting more uncivilised, irresponsible and selfish even though most of us are more educated. who to be blamed?

teachers?
parents?
the individual?

whatever it is, the individual has to be the one to be blamed. they have brains. they go to schools. they are taught with all sort of moral values. but because of that kind of tak ada kesedaran sivik punya orang, others became the victim of their act.

okay, straight to the point, i seriously seriously seriously dont understand why the advance animal known as human beings love to leave their trolleys wherever they feel like it and not the place where they are supposed to be after shopping.

?????

??????

taiping tesco for example, there are many places specially provided for the customers to park the trolley after been used thank you tesco but if you are aware, most of them just put the trolly aside favourite spot - beside their cars even though the trolley parking spaces just a few steps away. not only one but many spaces are provided k!!!

what da!!!!

does it take that much effort/energy/time/whatever to push the trolley to the provided place? will they die for doing so? will that cost them a single cent? will that harm them? NO! what happen to the people of today? how much time/energy/fats they can save from not pushing the trolleys back to place?

and because of some rather keep their fats accumulated than walk a few steps, some even worse where they 'kindly' pushed but halfway leaving the trolley nowhere and thus it caused my aunt's car to be the victim of the selfish and irresponsible action. just how unlucky it would be to be knocked by the trolley left by some horrible people today. i was driving out from tesco to taiping central. at that junction, i was terribly shocked by a loud bang. first thought - sei, did i knock on someone, motorcycle or car? wei, i drive very carefully wor. worse when had my mum in the car with me, she made the bang even louder and my heart almost dropped. second thought - wei, how can this happen? i'm a cautious driver. luckily i'm stil young and still able to accept it. if not i will be the one got killed. well, what exactly happened was a trolley rolled down and knocked the car. the car was quite badly knocked and left two deep scratches for memories thanks a lot to the person that simply left the trolley. so kind of you. the mechanic must paid you a lot for that (with a 'smile'). adeh, what a good timing man. it wouldnt happen if i go to toilet cause my bladder was full that time but i refused to empty it. so, my fault??? of course not! guess its all nicely arranged and the incident was fated.

setiap yang berlaku ada hikmah di sebaliknya....

hikmah di sebalik kejadian ini adalah......

belum tahu.

if i know the trolley was left by one of the parents of my future students, then the kids will repay for what the parents had done. hahaha....serve you right! just kidding. i'm pro. i dont do such thing.

home sweet home

2008-09-28T23:57:00.004+08:00

its always feel good to be at home. wake up at any time of the day and no worries about what to eat the next moment. hehehe.... =)

happy pigging to myself!!!!! hurray!!!!! even though for a week

you may not know but now you do

2008-09-26T03:44:00.005+08:00

sometimes it doesnt has to be big thing to get great satisfaction. doesnt need much planning. doesnt need much effort. just a simple thing that never come across our minds can actually satisfied us a lot. let me give you an example where this action really gives me HUGE satisfaction.
warning : it may be a little gross hahaha....=)

have you ever stucked in a situation where you have bad stomach ache?

then have to kek and kek cause no appropriate place for you to answer the nature call?

its so bad that you can feel as if tornado and hurricane occur in it?

crossing your legs and bending your body and keep on kek?

soon body starts to shiver and you cant stand still?

eyes keep on closing and all sort of lines seen on the forehead?

tears begin to wet your eyes and slowly drop from the end of the eyes?

then you start to feel goosebumps and cold sweat pouring down? normal sweat tastes salty but cold sweat is tasteless.

and become speechless?

at that moment, ever thought peristalsis is such an effective and amazing process created by god. it slowly move the unwanted digested materials so smoothly towards the entrance.

everything turns worse when the unwanted digested materials getting nearer but you still trying hard to squeeze yourself and folding your body like a ball.....
.......
......
when you finally find the right spot,

~~~~~boosh~~~~~

that moment......

that second.....

unbelievably.....

......................aaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH...........

as if you have put the last dot on your assignment and push the whole damn pile of done work to the lecturer.......

as if you have hike up to the peak and shout out loud........

body soften as if no backbone supporting you.....

and

follow by a very long sigh of relief.......

-end-

thats a lil' moment of mine, it really makes me feel extremely goood.

last 4 days

2008-09-25T16:03:00.004+08:00

lets sum up what happened since my last visit here.

on sunday, i was awake whole night to finish the hong kong drama series, moonlight resonance. from the 11th episode till 34th but because i had lab at 8.00am so i gotta stop there and i had a 40minutes sleep while waiting for the time to come. after the lab and other businesses, i continued the last 6 episodes and on monday itself i managed to watch the whole series. good job. haha!!!!!

on tuesday, i no longer wearing my so called weird attire (acco to the lecturer) note : only to that paticular class. kuai kuai wore baju kurung to her class. luckily she picked my group number and i got to present that day. it felt uneasy to keep the presentation till after hol. everything went fine,i even wished her 'selamat hari raya' at the end of the class and she sort of hugged me and said, 'kan cantik pakai macam ni...' so, everything got back to peaceful. a baju kurung enough to settle the whole damn thing. how easy!!! =)

other than that, nothing's special but i was glad i got to redeem my sleep for the last few days. from friday till sunday, my sleep was less than 10hours but now, everything been replaced. yey!

now, i just cant wait to go home and meet with my bunch of friends and have a fun time babi-q with them. cant wait to see anne cause i really miss her a lot.

yey but aduhai....

2008-09-21T14:08:00.002+08:00

i shall declare that my 7 days mission SUDAH SELESAI DENGAN BERJAYA!!!!! wooohoooo.......

xxxxx

i did something stupid yesterday. a familiar but unknown number messaged me yesterday. i assumed its my friend i knew from pesta konvo. the friend of mine is a malay girl. such assumption was made because the way the message was typed very malay style and has smtg to do with the majlis buka puasa sekretariat pesta konvo. pesta konvo was where i knew her.

besides, i mean how was i to expect some stranger or not close friend said smtg like rindu you in msg. usually its friend and girl. but after 2 msges, i realised the one messaging me was not the one i thought and i stupidly assumed its her and jokingly replied rindu you jugak on the second reply cause she indeed a nice senior. moreover, she repeated she missed me in the second msg and feeling sympathy for not responding the first one, i replied. when reached to the 3rd or 4th msg, aduhai, its not my friend but some scary guy used to msg me!!!!!! as usual i ignored the msges like what i used to do. what a misunderstanding. luckily its messaging adn i can simply pretend nothing happened. aaaahhhh.....

7 days mission

2008-09-17T13:57:00.002+08:00

yes!!!!! 3 days mission is now accomplished!!!!! congrats to myself. hahahaha.....

ok, now shall extend my mission to 7 days. so, 4 more days to go.

keep it up keep it up......

*sF*

*confused

dont worry i'm fine

here he comes...

been so long...

oh!

i dont know what is this

cny

no more ROS

hello 2010

when its crashed

peace

some crap to avoid reading

ekspedisi memburu dan makan durian

beware

exam begins

un-stress myself

one sentence

aih..

penderitaan

i choose

foodpoisoning

selamat hari raya!

can i lean on you?

mystery

box set 368

hmm..

sabar...

2208

~ouch!~ but nice

purest raindrops

[ ]

back in one piece

pseudo---

not good

kalo rajin bacalah

short and perhaps unnecesary post

keseratus

cepat cepat

a.f 7 habis sudah ba

now i know

when rollercoaster reaches bottom

buat manusia yang memerlukan

agak panas

moving moving...

back for nothing

lighten myself

will it be a warning for me?

crazily jammed

earth hour - save the earth

field trip

eggs boiling vs life

not good

308 now

lets ride and be young

bazir saja

sign of ageing back in action

it's march...bulan tiga sudah tiba

i am addicted

words of self disappointment

ah, the day

panas

another ridiculous political issue

black on 10th feb

selamat tinggal buat selama-lamanya

semakin menjadi-jadi...

aduhai....

most probably a no

pai ti kong

dear god

discharged!

when?

filling up boredom

habislaa cepat!!!!!!

errghhhh......

kepulangannya....

kepatahan kasut kawad

what a day!!!

homesick

~2009~

sF