dont worry i'm fine

its getting a little difficult to breathe today, i dont know why. after beating in some abnormally fast rate, my heart started to ache a little. after few hours, the suffocation is back with my heart aching again and i have to stretch myself to get a really deep breath to make sure i am breathing in some air into my lungs. man, what a freakening thing. i understand i may not be very young now but after all i'm not that old for a worn out heart. really hope it is just some normal thing and does not mean anything. ya, that should be it, i'm fine. very fine.

here he comes...

since weekend i've been waiting and in another 11+ hours, here he comes and here i go.....

***** fingers crossed *****

***** pray hard *****

***** all the best to me *****

been so long...

two days ago was the release of STPM result. wow, so many years back since i've taken mine. during my time, i didn't fancy that moment. who would when the results came out to be a disappointment. thank god, its over now and i've recover from that yucky feelings. but not long from now, i will soon be hit with another disappointment. aah!!!! please, dont let that to happen. i rather it that kinda of news where it turns out to be good news when i've prepared for the worst. that feeling is great. just like the one felt by tim urban and alex lambert during their elimination rounds. they thought they would be bidding goodbyes but how fortunate its not their time yet. but if they still fail to prove themselves next week, well most probably the banana is stolen before it gets ripen. anyhow, personally i hope jermaine seller gets eliminated as soon as possible. i dislike him the most, he somehow irritates me a lot.