i dont know what is this

to xx,



if only i have the courage to tell you how much i miss you, i would be email this to you instead of blogging here. but come to think of it, its not that i do not have the courage cause courage is not what it takes. for me, i dont find it a problem to say it out what i feel but the point is why would i wanna let you know when i know letting you know will not make a difference. and how do i know i know that? cause i told you so before and i know too that its not me that you want to hear it from.. therefore, from then on, i choose to keep everything concerns bout you in my heart instead of bullshitting to you. this is why this is not found in your inbox but my blog.