i am addicted

aha, i'm so addicted! so addicted into reading conan. so addicted that i actually went to campus to read it online because line failure in hostel. so addicted that i was ignoring my quiz today but kept on reading it. so addicted that i actually went under the rain for the sake of it. ~doosh~ aduhai~~~~~

somehow its fun to know that i have something to do when i have nothing to do. now my free time, boring time, break time, busy time, anytime is filled with something. hehe... ya, comic is what i mean! hooray, conan is back!

its just weird cause i knew the website for quite some time but at that time i found out that the feeling of reading it online and reading the book was not the same. and fussy me just save that web address and didnt bother to visit it. but recently, due to neverending work, it just flashed to my mind to read detective conan. then i realised it's just as fun as reading it on book though i still do prefer doing my reading while holding the book. ah, just so traditional me. apa apapun, ah yes, i'm an addict now!!!!!!

addict....addict....addict......

words of self disappointment

sort of frust with my stupidity and uselessness. even a call, i couldnt handled it. plan A failed and for plan B, so far no response. guess its the same with plan A - 'lok hai cui liau'. when plans failed, no result will be seen, no one will ever know that i actually done something, no one will ever know that i actually put effort in planning and accomplishing my plan, no one will ever know that i actually have the intention to do it, even, no one will believe me. no matter how its mentioned, failed means failed. its almost equal to none. i'm too heartbroken to be questioned on my sincerity and effort, best is to just keep it to myself. since i'm famous of heartless, insensitive and useless, not much expectation will be from me though. so it doesnt matter. only me and god.....



-and it shall be sealed-

ah, the day

i always believe that sleep can be replaced. you know something like plus minus calculation.

for example, today have more than 12 hours sleep so the day after take only 6 hours sleep.

or today stay up whole night, then take 3hours nap, 6hours sleep in the third day and when time is available, sleep whole day to get the average of 8-10 hours sleep.

maybe i hv belief in that silly theory of mine so it kinda work for me. haha!!!!

right now, all i'm waiting is the day. aaah~~~ the day where i get to sleep......
and sleep...
and sleep.....
to replace all my sleeping debts.

panas

hot hOT HOT!!!!!!

its so hot...

so hot that i still feel hot even i'm sitting under the fan...

so hot that i sweat when i'm having my meals...

so hot that i even sweat when i'm asleep...

so hot that i wake up from my sleep...

so hot that i bathe so many times...

so hot that my face turns red for no reason...

so hot that i cant bear wearing my bras...

so hot that i feel glad i still see sunshine...

so hot that i know my body system is working well...

so hot that i'm happy knowing i'm in malaysia...

so hot so hot SOOOO SOOOOOOO HOT!!!!!!

another ridiculous political issue

seems like politicans nowadays getting to lose their patience and very obvious that they want power desperately despite what kinds of techniques used as long as they can defeat their competitors. ya, even those techniques are beyond morals, respect and dignity.

not long ago, laws are misused and now the pride of a woman becomes one of the weapons. distributing nude photos are so popular and common now as it has been blended into one of the usual daily news just like any other abusion, pollution, education and economic news.

i dont know how a so called islamic country with majority islam leaders can end up with all these dirty techniques. this is truly an immoral, wicked and disrespectful act.

the very surface observation of mine, the overview i can make is this.....

due to the awareness of people, many other parties start to speak out and arise. when the power is distributed fairly, it makes no party any stronger as all supporters are equally the same. this in fact has made one particular party feels very uncomfortable (perhaps it feels challenged). therefore, this party no longer able to tolerate and very obvious want to take full control of the country. the party choose to eliminate other parties that are interfering. the types of ways used are what we see now.

black on 10th feb

according to the message i received hours ago, its very obvious it showed dissatisfaction of some people who started the chain regarding how bn 'snatched' perak from pakatan. the unknown decided to wear black and asked other perakians who love perak to join as well on 10 of february 2009. erm, its sign of anger and rejection to new government as well as a way of supporting nizar.

in addition, any perakians who spread that msg around and join that kinda i would say protest on that particular tuesday they are those who love perak and whoever that are not they dont love perak. hmmmm..... i deleted the mesage though. however that did not mean my love to perak less than any other perakian.

selamat tinggal buat selama-lamanya

"bila ajal sudah tiba, kita terima sajalah"

what else could be said when there was a sudden news of death?

my coach, en.affendi, also my platoon coach, might not be related to me genetically but his loss was felt as much as the loss of a relative as he treated us just like his own children.

he would usually seen sitting on the table outside the office with both his legs hanging and swinging in the air while he's smoking. he would always be the first to greet cheerfully with a cute broad smile on his face once i reached office.

he was such a soft spoken man even during training. he never scold us even we marched terribly and slept in his law classes instead he taught us with lotsa patience, care and love.

the last i saw him was on wednesday when i sent some cookies and oranges to office. was joking with him and listening to the talk of an aged and experienced man. he just loved to talk and talk and talk....

but tonight, all these remained as memories as he left this world 3-4 hours ago. a sudden attack, just an attack on the heart so easily god grabbed a man's life from us.

may you rest in peace.

semakin menjadi-jadi...

ever since election i hardly cared for politics cause too much of conflicts, protests and dramas. just too sick with those craps.

until recently what happened in perak i personally felt that it was a saddening thing. if i were to vote for those bloody two assemblymen, i would felt more shameful.

those so called wakil rakyat didn’t seem to play their parts and kept letting the people down.

everything was good, great, fine, ya, sure, tak ada masalah, saya akan..., jgn risau, sudah tentu during pre-election, happily promoting themselves to get votes but see what happened after they were voted??? every words and promises was bullshit!!!!! well, as expected aint it?

then, parties became the issues.

for goodness sake, party? who cares which party once you win the election? irresponsible nonsensical idiotic people simply changed parties here and there, then resigned or whatsoever for their own benefits. seriously pissed with those bastards.

did they actually realise what are their roles all about???

let me....

“hei, mangkuk wakil rakyat, tugas kau bukan tukar atau pilih parti mana yang kau suka keluar masuk dan suka suka letak jawatan. tugas kau adalah berkhidmat untuk rakyat demi rakyat. tak kisahlah parti mana pun sebab yang penting dan paling utama adalah menyumbang dan membaiki hidup rakyat yang percaya dan undi kau!!!!"


i have to be clear here that i’m cartainly not bias towards any party. i don’t care whether BN or pakatan rakyat but what drawn my anger is that menteri besar is not respected, simply changed / forced to resign without considering the opinions of perakians and perak simply taken over by other party. apa ni?????

did anyone ask perakians whether they wana change pucuk kepimpinan?

did anyone ask them do they prefer to be pro-government or opposition?

did anyone ask them whether they prefer nizar or zambry????

NO!!! the answer is NO!!!! NO NO NOOOOO!!!!!!!

man what the hell? is this the way democracy is practised?

i personally feel that state election should be carried out even though i know it may be money, energy and time comsuming. thats the best way for perakians to tell the country what they feel and which they choose. after all, thats what we call democracy or 'democracy'.

aduhai....

serabutnya hidup saya

kelam kabut

tak terurus

kerja berlambak tapi semua tak terjalan, menghitung hari menunggu masa, tertunggak saje

aduhai

most probably a no

i should be grateful (?), proud (?) or whatever i should when i was told by my roommate whom she kindly checked for me that my name was listed in the ‘program kecemerlangan something something....’. but no! instead it is troubling me since the moment i know i hv (compulsory) to attend that program or seminar or talk or whatsoever. There are positives and negatives

should be proud cause :

• be meeting uni’s brilliant students (but who cares?)
• given a great honour to attend such thing as its limited and chosen only by university (though i have no idea at all what’s that all about
• never know what kind of advantage will be offered (scholarship or tips or smtg like that)

troublesome cause :

• the thing will be on a Sunday which is also the day i hv no training and also a public holiday!!! c’mon, its thaipusam (be considerate to the hindus!!! though i’m not)
• clashes with my plan of going to taiping with coursemates to do assignment and at the same time balik kampung!!!
• i hv limited time to show them how great my hometown is (horrible!)
  

Oh why of all days????

pai ti kong

yes, yes!!!!! after TWO times missing pai ti kong, at last i pai for this year!!!!!!

two years made me felt like i missed pai ti kong for twenty years and so i insisted to pai this year even though i ponteng 2 classes for monday. ah, whatever it was i got those classes' attendance settled in a good way. ooo yea.... smart me smart me....

after missing two times, i realised it was still that merry in fact merrier (comparing two years back) even though it was so called recession this year, fire cracking everywhere. now, not only the red firecrackers >>>>>piN pIn PaNg pANg<<<<<, some really spent for huge fireworks. how 'kam kai' and 'uu lui'!!!

dear god

may my phone be blessed with good health.....