funny coursemate

yesterday was my university election day. it wasnt as merry as last year but obviously there were students that competing and voting. well, i was one that voted.
when i was blogging the previous blog at the cafe yesterday, there were this group of students mostly were the students representatives for last year, students that sort of actively involved in the university's program and students that competiting for the this year's election. they loved to hang around the cafe and i was so coincidently there. when they finished their food and businesses, duh, they went off and one of them who happened to be my coursemate/classmate walked passed me and said,

' thanks for your vote!'

i was like a lil' shocked and replied,

'huh? macam mana kamu tahu?'

and she said,

'well, i know you. thanks for your support and a broad smile'

off she went with that noisy group.

i was amused with her confidence that she actually thought i was voting for her. damn damn. i bet she didnt know that there were rumours among the coursemates of not voting for her. even her clique told us that they wouldnt be voting for her so how did she expect us or me to vote for her to represent our faculty. question mark????

greeeeeeen

when i was on the way back from kl on sunday, there was this place that i drove passed. its a place with lake at first then trees and hills all around. i felt good surrounded by them. the green comforted my eyes. perhaps its psychology cause i felt fresh even though there were cars that released pretty thick black smoke due to the cars' quality the road is up and downhill you see. throughout my way, there were people at the roadsides. some were out for a day out, some went fishing, swimming and other activities and some even with buckets to fill in water from the pipe, i didnt know why but i guess they had reasons or beliefs about the water. i had the urge to stopby and wanted to stare at the nature. but for safety i decided not to. at that times, i really wished the road would never end. it was really a peaceful and harmony moment. here are some photos i managed to capture....

stay silence

words are in fact very powerful especially words that came out from one without filtration. those words came out so fast and straight forward that they actually hurt someone or anyone. *sigh.... me again i'm talking about here. sometimes i just couldnt control myself especially when i got so comfortable with my close/ good friends that whatever we felt like saying, we just said it without much considerations. we critized each other 'kao kao' and all we had were laughters cause we knew we were joking, we wouldn't mind and its for our own good.

it was not a bad thing until i brought that attitude back to my campus and hostel. the first week itself when i got back after raya break, i made my friend/ex-roommate cried. we were talking and joking around until a part where i pointed out smtg about her, the whole conversations went not right. please...they knew how straight forward i was and besides she was nicely joking with me and moreover she was my roommate, i assumed she should at least knew me a little more than others but hell NO. those listenning to the conversations knew i was telling the truth but the way i spoke it was quite harsh to her cause i didnt feel its harsh. moreover because all these while no one ever commented her so she took it for granted and now i spoke it out which caused the thing to become worse. its so true that 'siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedasnya'.

when i realised i should kept my mouth shut, i knew its oo-oh,damn. i nicely apologized to her but she ignored me. ah, whatever. later when i off for training, she cried in the office. during training, my coach mentioned to my platoon of her crying and asked whoever that made her cried to comfort her. i was like what da! i am so not going to do so. its not my fault and besides i apologized. in her dream to want me to comfort her. then during lunch, the case was mentioned again by my officer. she asked me to say smtg nice and comfort her. i was again like hah, boleh blah!

you may think whats the big problem to go and comfort her and get the mess cleared. ego? it had nothing or maybe a little to do with my ego. but one, i apologized because i knew she couldnt accept my words. two, what i said was true thats why she cried because she felt bad. three, when asked for reason of her crying, she only explained half. she didnt tell the whole damn thing. and four, its not my fault totally. and so i decided to just ignored the whole incident.

i thought it only happened to not close friend but *sigh, best friend pun terasa. speechless.

so, you only want me to say words that you like to hear and not words that what i feel???

i know that the whole main point here is to think before i speak, construct and reconstruct my sentences or convey it in a better way but i tel you, if i think i wont speak it out anymore.

i understand that different people have different sensitivities. but too bad i only realise it when it occur. i'm sorry that comforting is hard for me especially when its set in my mind that its not fault and not feeling guilty. i dont expect people to change or accept my style. so i control myself but neither do i can change in a short time. in the meantime, just keep my mouth shut, ignore everything and be cool.

beauty of the space

have you ever look at the moon so close that even though there are holes and holes on the moon, it is still very beautiful??? i did!!!!!! and i tel you, it was darn amazing how technology today can pulled me so much closer of the moon to my sight. its an fascinating moment and i was amused.

besides moon, i learned that the shiny thing at the sky which all the while i labelled it as star was actually jupiter. yea, its jupiter, the fifth planet in our milky way!!!!!!! if we can see jupiter, of course we can see mars and venus as well. mars can be seen around january or early of the year. oh, even saturn. a man showed me the photos of saturn he took with his camera, god dammit, it was beautiful.....in case you forget saturn is the most beautiful planet. you know the one with the ring. oooo....

apart from those, i was taken for a ride to space by sight to explore those creations that god knows their existense. now, i know what is nebula, types of nebula, how many constellations and a brief view of the space. everything was so mesmerizing.

so, do you know what is nebula? it is where the stars are born. there are open nebula, globular nebula and orion nebula. why orion nebula? cause it is at the orion erm, know what is orion right?

i always have this dream to have a house small or medium one will do and beside it is a large wide field with trees and river at the side and hills can be seen from far. so green, fresh and relax where i can lay down and look at the sky with no worries. it is better if there's such place in north pole cause there's where we can see polaris upright and aurora but its north pole i'm talking about. aaah, dream.

using three different telescopes above to capture those photos below. yup, i took the photos with my camera phone

cool....i love it

never in my life i have such a big bruise like i have now. say me crazy but it feels good. haha! thanks to paintball the ball. it hit my fleshy thigh and left a sun look alike bruise. the moment the bullet hit me, i was like dammit but it gave me a great feeling. i didn't know why perhaps since small i like bruises and my hobby is pressing/rubbing whether my own or others' bruises. i like the pain and because i kept pressing my bruises thats y they never last long.

back to paintball, less than 2 min, i was shot again at the side of my body but it didnt hurt surprisingly. was doubting what people said as it wasn't as painful as described but actually i was saved by the jacket. adeh....how lucky... i like paintball. its fun and exciting regarding to shoot or being shot. and its not only about games, its about strategies, shooting skills and teamwork. something like war.

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day 2, after 29 hours

tak ada kesedaran sivik langsung....

people nowadays are getting more uncivilised, irresponsible and selfish even though most of us are more educated. who to be blamed?

• teachers?
• parents?
• the individual?

whatever it is, the individual has to be the one to be blamed. they have brains. they go to schools. they are taught with all sort of moral values. but because of that kind of tak ada kesedaran sivik punya orang, others became the victim of their act.

okay, straight to the point, i seriously seriously seriously dont understand why the advance animal known as human beings love to leave their trolleys wherever they feel like it and not the place where they are supposed to be after shopping.

?????

??????

taiping tesco for example, there are many places specially provided for the customers to park the trolley after been used thank you tesco but if you are aware, most of them just put the trolly aside favourite spot - beside their cars even though the trolley parking spaces just a few steps away. not only one but many spaces are provided k!!!

what da!!!!

does it take that much effort/energy/time/whatever to push the trolley to the provided place? will they die for doing so? will that cost them a single cent? will that harm them? NO! what happen to the people of today? how much time/energy/fats they can save from not pushing the trolleys back to place?

and because of some rather keep their fats accumulated than walk a few steps, some even worse where they 'kindly' pushed but halfway leaving the trolley nowhere and thus it caused my aunt's car to be the victim of the selfish and irresponsible action. just how unlucky it would be to be knocked by the trolley left by some horrible people today. i was driving out from tesco to taiping central. at that junction, i was terribly shocked by a loud bang. first thought - sei, did i knock on someone, motorcycle or car? wei, i drive very carefully wor. worse when had my mum in the car with me, she made the bang even louder and my heart almost dropped. second thought - wei, how can this happen? i'm a cautious driver. luckily i'm stil young and still able to accept it. if not i will be the one got killed. well, what exactly happened was a trolley rolled down and knocked the car. the car was quite badly knocked and left two deep scratches for memories thanks a lot to the person that simply left the trolley. so kind of you. the mechanic must paid you a lot for that (with a 'smile'). adeh, what a good timing man. it wouldnt happen if i go to toilet cause my bladder was full that time but i refused to empty it. so, my fault??? of course not! guess its all nicely arranged and the incident was fated.

setiap yang berlaku ada hikmah di sebaliknya....

hikmah di sebalik kejadian ini adalah......

belum tahu.

if i know the trolley was left by one of the parents of my future students, then the kids will repay for what the parents had done. hahaha....serve you right! just kidding. i'm pro. i dont do such thing.