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yo, hibernated blog!

erm, today.....
weather is good. hot bright friday!
mood aint bad. well, no reason why i should be in bad mood or whatsoever.
bear bear is healthy.
motorbike still with 2 wheels.
laundry basket...? err,...still in considerable condition. AH @#$%^, my UNIFORM!....damn, been chucked for weeks. noh noh, more than that d. aiya...kan bu tau..kan bu tau....tak nampak...tak nampak... later laaaa...


so! so!!!!! weekend is heeerrree!!!!! and YES, end of first week of exam. woohoooo.... 2 weeks to go. specifically...[counting with fingers] 13days more. ya, 13 hari lagi saje!! SAJE!!!

anyways, while i'm here i shal update a lil bout myself. too bad i can only blog about me cause i only know updates bout me. guess its confirmed that i'm not accepted to stay in hostel for next sem. hah!!!! halau lar, tak kisah pon! all these are caused by the new intake in next session. dont know why, uni decided to take in so so many students. not as if the uni is very huge or what but increasing almost 2times of the normal intake. what for????? whatever it is, because first year students compulsory to stay in hostel and priority must be given to them. to fill those in..., apa lagi, seniors of every hostels become the victims. one by one kicked out...no no, to be exact, groups by groups been kicked out. and thats y i'm moving out. i mean i need to move out even though we were given the words and so called guaranteed we get to stay til the very last sem. whatever. its gonna be my last sem here. i dont give a damn man, think of it, next sem.....

i hv no curfew! i conquer my room! i can wear shorts in and out! CYCLE to campus! WALK to campus! and babi... er, still not very approriate. hehe...after all, i'm stil staying with muslims and i'm the only chinese in the house.
but it will be real real fun if i hv bicycle....

lighten myself

it depends on how i view it...

running away definitely not the right choice

no matter how heavy i feel...

the burden will be removed piece by piece

all i have to do is....

look at the brighter side of the day,

believe that the grey sky will turn to bright blue sky and the clouds will give way for the sun to shine...

will it be a warning for me?

god knows why i woke up with chest pain and heartache today. the feeling definitely not a good one. everyone knows heart is important, so do i but knowing it by words and really know is different case. i wouldnt know how really important my heart is until today when my heart pumped so fast and each beats ached me that i had to press my chest at times and even felt that i would collasped anytime. its not scary but i was worried. i didnt exactly know what kinds of level of pain only can be considered as pain but to be safe, i did asked my roommate to check on me when i fall asleep for example check if i still breathing and inform my parents if anything about to happen to me and asked her to tell the doc or somebody that i complained bout heartache if i fainted or whatsoever guess that will make their work easier. but until now, even though i can still feel the slightly pain, i am still breathing. so nothing to worry about. hah, at least i learnt that i was not afraid of this way of death (for now).