sick of human beings....

i guess its in nature that everyone has the urge to control everyone in the world and make them listen and follow. honestly, i’m tired of the nation news here. but politics are everywhere. i don’t hv to go far to witness the complexity of politics in my country, i can just see and experience it here in my everyday’s life.

one and closest is voluntary core i joined in my uni. in this core itself, politics and politics from the bottom till top and from top till bottom and it goes round and round. a simple decision from the top will affect the whole core and commands are commands for us. its not that i wana say the top people not smart but they are not in our positions and i understand its hard to come out with a wise and all people satisfactory decisions but at least...at least ask us what the hell that we want and tell us the plans, and not simply assume what we want and assume what’s best for us which actually not. this is what happened in my core now. its such a mess. it suppose to be one big family with cooperation, faith, love and care but now, jealousy, anger, hatred, frustration, dissatisfaction etc, all because of politics in upper organization and simply made decisions, all for the sake of their own and own platoon which caused the people at the bottom to suffer. and who’s the people at the bottom? WE! the core members from different batches.

i’m very calm now, perhaps i’m too tired for all these craps. in the core, i’m a follower so i’l play my part and be a good follower and do my best to whatever the commands come to me.

all i can say here is i’m tired. i’m tired of the people around. i’m tired of politics and i’m tired of those who think they are right all the time and those who think they have power and they can just simply control here and there. i’m just too tired to fight back and now i refuse to do anything but just stay back and do what i’m asked and what i’m supposed. giving in not because i’m afraid but because i don’t want to make things worse and increase the number of unhappy people.

just give me a break and stay away from me!

i’m sick of human beings. from the most unique and greatest creatures created by god, they just have to choose to turn out to be the most disastrous creatures. peculiar.